Lyrics
To think I need another bitch just to make me happy no
To express the realization that seeking external validation or relationships is not the key to personal happiness.
I'm getting back to loving me kus love ain't what i no
Focusing on self-love as a priority because romantic love hasn't provided fulfillment.
I failed a couple times and now I'm feeling like a ghost
Feeling emotionally detached or unseen after experiencing failure multiple times.
My heart in pieces and my mind just don't align no more
Expressing a sense of emotional and mental disarray, with the heart and mind no longer in sync.
I'm steady trying to kick a habit like tobacco smoke
Struggling to overcome a habit or addiction, drawing a parallel with trying to grow beyond it.
I got to fill the void with something that's going to help me grow
Seeking something meaningful to fill an emotional void and contribute to personal development.
Not as in height but as in spirit my entire soul
Emphasizing spiritual growth over physical height, implying a desire for inner richness.
Is hell of numb from all the pain I chose to not expose
Feeling emotionally numb due to the pain kept hidden from others.
I'm steady trying to find a way to be a better me
Actively working towards self-improvement and searching for a path to become a better person.
But shit i'm tired of doing for other that don't do for me
Expressing exhaustion from investing in others who don't reciprocate the same effort.
Can barely hold my own weight some nights I barely eat
Facing challenges in personal well-being, both physically and emotionally.
They see a nigga struggling but still proceed to feast
Observing how others take advantage of one's struggles while they themselves thrive.
A lot of niggas scared of change until its rest in peace
Reflecting on people's resistance to change until faced with death or financial struggles.
Or when they broke because they fed up trying to please the streets
Noting that some individuals only abandon harmful behaviors when they hit rock bottom.
I opened up my eyes and saw the world for what it really be and realized before i love you I got to love me
Realizing the importance of self-love before extending love to others.
I opened up my eyes and saw the world for what it be and realized before I love you I got to love me
Reiteration of the crucial need for self-love before embracing love from others.
I opened up my eyes and saw the world for what it be and realized before I love you I got to love me
-Time be moving hell of fast i'm barley keeping up
Perceiving time as fleeting, struggling to keep pace with life's challenges.
Still trying to find a sense of balance but I cant adjust
Attempting to find balance in life but facing difficulty in adjusting to new circumstances.
My mamma calling me but I ain't ever picking up
Avoiding or neglecting family connections, possibly due to personal struggles.
Its like its been a wall between us she ain't been around since I was young and I cant even blame her she was Probably going through some shit
Acknowledging a strained relationship with the mother, understanding her challenges.
But i could never be the one to abandon my own kids
Commitment to not replicate the parental abandonment experienced in childhood.
I'm trying to find my mind but I just don't no where it is
Expressing confusion and difficulty in understanding one's own thoughts and emotions.
And I cant see the future but I no in time these wounds will heal
Believing that with time, emotional wounds will heal and personal growth will occur.
When I look into the mirror I see my daddy face
Seeing a resemblance to the father in one's own reflection, possibly leading to negative feelings.
I get disgusted when I see my face look like your face
Expressing dissatisfaction with the similarity between one's face and that of a disliked parent.
I had to learn to hold it down no matter where I stay
Learning the importance of resilience and perseverance regardless of the circumstances.
But time and time again I told myself that I wont be the same
Committing to personal growth, determined not to repeat past mistakes.
Though all the pain I still became a man as you can see
Becoming a stronger person through adversity, emphasizing personal growth.
What got me through the storm was knowing life was meant for me
Finding strength in the belief that life has a purpose, helping navigate through challenges.
You want to fix my heart just know repairs ain't guaranteed and you should know before I love you I got to love me
Cautioning that repairing a broken heart isn't guaranteed, emphasizing the importance of self-love.
I opened up my eyes and saw the world for what it be and realized before I love you I got to love me
Reiterating the realization that self-love precedes the capacity to love others.
I opened up my eyes and saw the world for what it be and realized before I love you I got to love me
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