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Ahhh
A sigh or expression of exhaustion or contemplation.
I've been circlin' miles and miles
Expressing the act of repeatedly going around in circles, possibly metaphorical for feeling stuck or lost.
Can I dial
Asking for permission or expressing a desire to connect with someone.
Your phone when I feel alone?
Expressing loneliness and a need for emotional support.
I've been lookin' through messy piles
Searching through chaotic and disorganized situations or thoughts.
And all the while
During the search, experiencing various emotions.
Bawlin' through a shaky smile
Crying while wearing a forced or uneasy smile.
'Cause I remember in December
Reflecting on past experiences, specifically in December, a month that might hold significance.
(In December)
Reiterating the importance of events in December.
I could weather the storm
Recalling a time when facing challenges was manageable, akin to being 17 years old.
Like I was 17
Expressing a desire to withstand difficulties.
And I could gather you would rather
Understanding the partner's preference to hold things together.
(You would rather)
Reiterating the partner's choice to endure challenges jointly.
I hold it together
Acknowledging the difficulty of maintaining composure today.
Not today, my love
Declaring a break from holding things together.
Not today
Emphasizing the decision to take a break from emotional labor today.
No
Asserting the decision with a resounding "No."
I've been drownin' like heavy tiles
Feeling overwhelmed and weighed down like heavy tiles.
For miles and miles
Continuing to circle or navigate through challenging situations.
Into oceans of emotions
Being submerged in deep and intense emotional experiences.
It's my typical place to feel
Identifying a familiar emotional space to cope with reality.
I can deal with reality
Expressing the ability to cope with reality.
Catastrophies are killing me
Experiencing personal disasters or overwhelming situations.
Shit, I remember in December
Recalling past difficulties, particularly in December.
(In December)
Reiterating the impact of December on personal resilience.
I could weather the storm
Recalling the ability to weather storms at the age of 23.
Like I was 23
Comparing personal resilience at age 23 to the partner's inability to endure challenges.
And you're no better, you would rather
Reiterating the partner's preference to face difficulties together.
(You would rather)
Acknowledging the partner's choice to suffer jointly.
Suffer together
Expressing the decision to take a break from joint suffering today.
Not today, my love
Repeating the decision not to engage in emotional labor today.
Not today, my love
Reiterating the decision not to engage in emotional labor today.
'Cause I'm tired of circling
Conveying weariness and fatigue from the repetitive and draining nature of circling in emotions or situations.
I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm tired
-I'm tired of circling
-I'm so tired of circling my love
-No more, no more, no more
Declaring an end to the cycle of circling and a desire for change.
No no no no no...
Emphasizing the finality of the decision with a series of "No's."
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