Lyrics
I can't tell if I'm cursed
I'm uncertain whether I'm under a curse
Or just blessed beyond measure
Contemplating if I'm exceptionally fortunate
If pain equals pleasure
Considering the possibility that pain brings pleasure
Then why are my insides on fire
Feeling intense internal turmoil
Isn't that what you wanted
Questioning if this is what someone desired
My knees always weak
My knees are always weak
But my foot taps a hole through the floor
Restless energy expressed by tapping my foot
Waking up in that cold sweat
Awakening in a cold sweat from a distressing dream
A dream about drowning
Experiencing dreams related to drowning
Beautiful and horrific
Dreams are a mix of beauty and horror
It stings
Feeling emotional pain
There's new pain in my throat when I sing
Discovering new pain in my throat while singing
And the lines in my face always change
Noticing changes in the lines on my face
Save the rest for tomorrow
Delaying dealing with issues until tomorrow
If it comes we'll burn that bridge down
Willing to burn bridges if necessary
One is somebody with nothing
Being someone with nothing
Two are the weeks that remain
Counting the remaining weeks
Three voices crowding my conscience
Three conflicting inner voices
Enough to acknowledge
Acknowledging the internal struggle
The difference between you and I
Recognizing differences between individuals
When my hands became calloused
Hands becoming calloused despite discomfort
Although I can't stand it
Disliking a situation despite enduring it
We were so happy
Reflecting on past happiness
That we could have died
Being so happy that it felt life-threatening
Stare deep at the blue wall
Intensely observing a blue wall
If you can hear waves crash
Listening for waves, possibly indicating nostalgia
We no longer have any time left
Awareness of limited time remaining
Panic nausea
Experiencing panic and nausea
The difference between you and I
Revisiting differences between individuals
Falling out now
Experiencing a falling out
So happy that we could have died
Recalling happiness despite potential consequences
Yet another rift is growing
Noticing a growing divide or disagreement
Tell me why I've stood my ground
Questioning why I've remained steadfast
As the Earth rips wide open
Symbolizing resilience as the Earth undergoes turmoil
I'm finally looking down
Gaining a new perspective
I don't think I'd make the jump
Contemplating suicide but uncertain about taking the leap
No light is seen from that smile now
Losing the positive energy expressed through a smile
Let the water take my body right back to the sea
Accepting fate and returning to the sea
See how they can barely notice you
Feeling unnoticed by others
It's always so strange when I can't seem to
Expressing difficulty in diverting attention from heartbeat
Stop focusing on the sound of my heartbeat
Struggling with obsessive focus on heartbeat sound
I can't take much more
Reaching a breaking point emotionally
The colors bend and break me
Sensory experiences causing emotional distress
The waves just pound against me
Feeling overwhelmed by life's challenges
So why the fuck does my brain take me there
Questioning the mind's tendency to revisit painful memories
Take me there
Expressing a desire to return to a specific state or place
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