Before You God
Redemption's Howl: A Soul's Journey to Find Light in Darkness
Lyrics
Conceived in anger, born into a rage
Starting life in a state of intense anger and continuing in a furious manner.
Raised by wolves who fed me on the injustice of the age
Being brought up in a harsh, uncaring environment that emphasized the unfairness of the world.
My mother left me outside a stranger's door
Left by the singer's mother at a stranger's home, possibly overwhelmed or unable to cope.
She heard a howling wind and could not refuse it anymore
The mother couldn't resist the call of the unknown or something powerful, represented by a howling wind.
Before you God I am opening my heart
Expressing vulnerability and sincerity in approaching God.
I know you did not expect me, I'm a thief in the night
Acknowledging that the singer's arrival before God might be unexpected and possibly seen as intruding or coming unexpectedly.
Before you God I will leave the ninety-nine
Willingness to leave behind the familiar and safe to seek God.
To find you in the darkness, I will not leave you behind
Commitment to not abandoning the search for God even in difficult times.
I've spent so much, wondering where you are
Spending a significant amount of time searching for God.
Hammers in my head heavy as a dying star
Feeling burdened and overwhelmed, comparing it to the weight of a dying star.
My daughters carry the same fears that I do
The singer's daughters share the same fears and anxieties.
My son loses sleep every night looking for you
The singer's son is also deeply affected by the search for God.
Before you God I am opening my heart
Reiterating the openness and vulnerability in approaching God.
I know you did not expect me, I'm a thief in the night
Recognizing again the unexpectedness of the singer's presence before God.
Before you God I will leave the ninety-nine
Willing to leave the comfort zone to seek God.
To find you in the darkness, I will not leave you behind
Determined not to abandon the search for God despite difficulties.
I am a temple with a fallen spire
Describing oneself as a broken or damaged place of worship.
Your absence burns me like a lake of fire
Feeling the intense pain of God's absence, likened to burning in a lake of fire.
Cure for my fear of cancer is dripping down my throat
Seeking a cure or solace for the fear of a serious illness, possibly finding comfort in something symbolic or metaphorical.
I still believe in miracles God, even when you don't
Maintaining faith in miracles even in the absence of obvious signs or divine intervention.
Before you God I will sing the exiles song
Expressing a commitment to sing about the experiences of being displaced or estranged.
I will bandage up your bruises by the shores of Babylon
Willingness to offer comfort and support in the midst of hardship, symbolized by the shores of Babylon.
Before you God I am calling out your name
Actively reaching out and calling upon God.
Like a ghost upon the water I am coming back again
Approaching God with a sense of ethereal presence, returning despite feeling transient or intangible.
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