Lyrics
I can't come back i'm dying
The speaker feels they can't return and are emotionally distressed to the point of feeling like they're dying.
Baby tell me why we're lying
They're asking their partner why they are being dishonest or deceitful.
No that's not what we decided
The situation at hand doesn't align with what was previously agreed upon or decided.
I don't know what I was trying
The speaker is uncertain about their actions or decisions made in the past.
And I won't just leave you all alone
They're expressing a commitment not to abandon their partner and want to remain by their side.
I'm trying to be your number one
The speaker is striving to be the most important person in their partner's life.
It's hard for me now that your gone
The absence of their partner makes it challenging for the speaker.
I can't believe
Repeated emphasis on the speaker feeling alone and isolated despite previous contentment.
I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
Repetition reinforces the idea that the partner provided everything the speaker desired.
Everything I wanted, you gave me, girl
-Everything I wanted, you gave me, girl
-Everything I wanted, you gave me, girl
-Everything I wanted, you gave me, girl
-Everything I wanted, you gave me
Reflections on the past relationship, reminiscing about shared moments and the pain of separation, expressing a desire to disconnect from life.
(everything I wanted)
-Everything I wanted it's not fair
-(everything I wanted) with all the shit
-(everything I wanted) we've been through
-I can not re- do you remember we were high
-(you gave me, girl)
-Where you told me I was your guy
-(you gave me, girl)
-You never even said goodbye
-(you gave me, girl)
-No I don't want to feel alive (you gave me)
-I can't come back i'm dying
Repetition of the earlier verses reiterating the emotional turmoil, desire to support the partner, and difficulty coping with their absence.
Baby tell me why we're lying
-No that's not what we decided
-I don't know what I was trying
-And I won't just leave you all alone
-I'm trying to be your number one
-It's hard for me now that your gone
-I'm on my own, on my own
Continued expression of being alone and self-reliant.
I'm on my own, on my own
-I'm on my own, on my own
-I'm on my own, on my own
-Remember in the cut we were getting fucked up
Recollection of specific moments involving substance use and a carefree lifestyle.
Brown colored rug parachute could sus
-Love going lean in the styrofoam cup
-Tabs on my tongue put hands on my gut
-I'm on my own until my death
The speaker acknowledges being alone until their death and reflects on past mistakes that affected their partner.
I wronged you in 2010
-Gone and I ain't see you since and
Regret over a past event that caused the separation, with no reunion since then.
I can't believe
Repetition emphasizing the disbelief and distress of being on their own despite the partner's past support and fulfillment.
I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
-I'm on my own, I'm on my own, I'm on my own
-I can't believe
Final emphasis on the speaker's struggle to accept their current solitary state.
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