Rock Paper Scissors
Embracing Melancholy: An Intimate Journey through Love and Pain
Lyrics
it's rock paper scissors as to whether
Uncertain if I'll overcome the feelings for you
i will get over you at all
The emotional struggle is like a game of chance
it's hand against hand and both hands are mine
Conflict within myself, both sides represented by my hands
it's standing in a circular line
Symbolic representation of being stuck in a repetitive cycle
which is not to say that i'm not also happy
Despite the internal conflict, there's also happiness
a happy meal with a surprise inside
Comparing happiness to a surprise inside a happy meal
surprise surprise here's another bright light in your eyes
Unexpected bright moments in life
exposing all the stuff you're not calculating enough to hide
Revealing vulnerabilities and shortcomings
this melancholy that i carry makes me feel so grown up
Melancholy adds a sense of maturity
at my kitchen table doing shots of resignation
Coping with resignation through shots at the kitchen table
i never thought i'd see the day when i would say i give up
Acceptance of giving up on something unexpected
and break the stallions of my wildest expectations
Confronting and taming wild expectations
i do not want to know you this way
Unwillingness to experience a painful version of the relationship
surrounded by so much pain
Surrounded by emotional pain
but how am i supposed to let go of you this way
The challenge of letting go in a difficult way
like a bird into the sky of my brain?
Metaphorically releasing emotions like a bird into the sky
i think i could accept all these dark colors
Possibly accepting the darker aspects of life
as just part of some bigger color scheme
Dark colors as part of a broader life experience
if it wasn't for that drippy string quartet of sadness
Unpleasant emotions highlighted by a sad musical accompaniment
underscoring each smiling scene
The sadness underscored even in happy moments
desire drags me right out of myself
Desire pulls me away from my true self
a gas-soaked rope tied to a piece of coal
Intense emotions compared to a dangerous setup
and i'm getting pretty good at looking at the bright side
Finding optimism amid challenging circumstances
while the flames rip along the sand and swallow me whole
Struggling with inner turmoil while facing external challenges
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