searching for you
Searching Beyond Absence
Lyrics
I wake up and make two cups of coffee
I start my day by making two cups of coffee.
Even though I'm the only one home
Even though I'm alone in the house, I make two cups of coffee.
I know you're gone and the chair next to me is empty
Recognizing your absence, I see an empty chair beside me.
But I pretend that I'm not alone
Despite being alone, I pretend that I'm not and try to feel accompanied.
I'll keep searching through every realm
I continue searching through various aspects of life.
Maybe I'll run into you again
Hoping to encounter you again in my exploration.
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow
I dread waking up tomorrow because you won't be by my side.
Cause I know it won't be next to you
Acknowledging the absence, I anticipate a lonely morning.
I'll just get high and feel my sorrow
To cope, I resort to getting high and drowning in sorrow.
Look for things that remind me of you
Engaging in activities that remind me of you.
When I go out I pass by all the places
When I'm outside, I pass by the places we used to visit together.
We used to go when you were around
Nostalgic moments about the times when you were present.
I know you're gone miles away but I still wish
Acknowledging your physical absence but still hopeful.
One day I'll see you when I'm making my rounds
Expressing a desire to see you again in the future.
I'll keep searching from now until death
Continuing the search for you persistently until death.
Promises broken but none we can't mend
Despite broken promises, there's hope for reconciliation.
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow
Dreading the upcoming day as it won't involve your presence.
Cause I know it won't be next to you
Expecting a lonesome tomorrow without you.
I'll just get high and feel my sorrow
Using substances to cope with the emotional pain.
Look for things that remind me of you
Engaging in activities that bring back memories of you.
In every crowded room
In crowded places, I feel like I see your face.
I swear I see your face
Experiencing déjà vu, making it challenging to escape the memories.
I'm getting deja vu
Struggling with the difficulty of avoiding reminiscent feelings.
It's so damn hard to escape
Comparing current interactions with how we used to be.
I hate the way they look
Expressing discomfort with how others resemble our past happiness.
The way they smile like we did
Noticing similarities in the way others smile, reminiscent of our shared joy.
So I'll keep searching for you
Continuing the relentless search for you in all places we've been.
In all the places we've been
Conveying a commitment to finding you wherever our shared memories exist.
I don't wanna wake up tomorrow
Anticipating the loneliness of the upcoming day without your presence.
Cause I know it won't be next to you
Feeling the void of your absence as I face another day alone.
I'll just get high and feel my sorrow
Using substances to numb the pain and drown in sorrow.
Look for things that remind me of you
Engaging in activities that trigger memories of you.
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