This Winter Will Kill Us All
Frozen Echoes: Unraveling Heartache in Apollo Clone's Winter Tale
Lyrics
I was outside late one night, it snowed
I experienced snowfall one night while being outdoors.
I walked home barefoot just to feel
I walked home without shoes to experience a unique sensation.
I saw you wearing summertime clothes in the cold
I noticed you wearing summer clothing in the cold.
With that painted on smile only I know
You had a smile that only I recognize as painted on.
You were at a bar laughing out loud, it seemed
You were at a bar, laughing loudly, appearing happier without me.
From afar you're happier without me
Observing from a distance, it seems you're better off without me.
Guess I get it; I'd be happier without me
I understand; I might be happier without myself.
Outgrew all my tears and apologies
I've moved beyond shedding tears and offering apologies.
I seek constant validation
I constantly seek approval and validation.
And all these mental problems overlap my creative
Mental issues often overshadow my creative pursuits.
I'm always lost in the past or a dark place
I frequently find myself dwelling on past or dark thoughts.
They took away my family, the scars make my heart race
My family was taken away, leaving scars that quicken my heartbeat.
Now I don't really ever get to watch the Sun go down
I rarely enjoy watching the sunset due to fear of time passing.
Because I'm afraid to see another day pass me by
Fear prevents me from leaving my room and facing the outside world.
I won't leave my room because there ain't nothing else outside
There's no one to check on me if I were to pass away.
No one even to come check on me if I died
I feel sickened, disappointed in myself.
I feel nauseous, I let myself down
I dislike facing the consequences and tend to self-blame.
Hate consequences, I beat myself up
My mind feels unsettled, and I sense a lack of genuine connections.
My head don't feel right, there's nobody real left
You understood my emotions when you heard my first song.
You knew where my heart was when you heard my first song
Move on, move on.
Move along, move along
According to my ex's friends, I've consistently wronged her.
My exes friends says that I only ever did her wrong
Why can't you acknowledge that we both contributed to our problems?
Why you can't ever tell 'em that we did each other wrong?
We supported each other through ups and downs.
And we picked eachother up, every couple ups and downs
I feel overwhelmed, doubting every positive thought.
I'm drowning, every pleasant thought I had these days now I'm doubting
I crave affirmation in large doses for my well-being.
I need affirmation, heavy doses or I'm not well
Recalling moments of holding roses, acknowledging the pain.
Remember holding roses, how the thorns made my heart feel
The thorns of those roses symbolize the pain in my heart.
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