Lyrics
I'm sitting in the classroom alone
I feel isolated in the classroom.
Never could find a face I could call my own
I struggle to identify with any particular person.
All the other kids turn to look at me
Others stare at me, making me uncomfortable.
As I turn my page to 23
Turning to a specific page in a book, possibly a significant moment.
It's like I grew some strange anatomy
I feel different, as if I've developed an unusual identity.
Assumed for the things that I'm not
People mistake me for someone I'm not.
Confused for another kid without a second thought
Being confused for another person without consideration.
Cause they look just like me
Others resemble me physically.
It's the same old story
Experiencing a repetitive and familiar situation.
Turns out I'm not special it seems
Realizing I'm not unique or special.
I can rarely say khoi huk Jiao Lai about myself
Struggling to express positive qualities about myself.
But I know it isn't right to bring myself down
Recognizing the need to avoid self-deprecation.
How could you have a sense of self-confidence when everyone looks at you wrong
Difficulty maintaining self-confidence due to societal judgment.
Cause I'm so done
Expressing frustration and weariness.
Of being assaulted
Feeling attacked or criticized.
For things, I've not done
Being blamed for things I haven't done.
And saying sorry
Apologizing for my inherent nature.
For the way I am
Expressing that I couldn't have planned or controlled my identity.
Couldn't really have this planned
Reflecting on the unpredictability of life.
Cause if you think you knew me
Others claim to understand me, but it's superficial.
You saw right through me
Feeling transparent and easily seen through by others.
And made a knocked off copy
Others create imitations of me.
Cause life's not a game
Life is serious and not a mere game.
Sure you can play it
Acknowledging the option to engage in life but recognizing its complexity.
but it's not the same
Doubting the simplicity of life's choices.
Oh what am I saying
An expression of confusion or self-doubt.
You can pick or choose
Acknowledging the ability to make choices.
Whether you win or you lose
Life offers options with varied outcomes.
Cause it always seems like I don't belong
Feeling like an outsider, not belonging.
A glitch that no one knew was there
Perceiving oneself as a glitch, an unnoticed anomaly.
Am I supposed to think that we
Questioning the possibility of fixing personal flaws.
could fix our faults
Expressing doubt about the potential improvement of faults.
And yet somehow I know
Despite doubts, there is a belief in eventual well-being.
That I'll be alright in this messed-up code
Acceptance of being okay despite the imperfect nature of existence.
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