Lyrics
Self medicated, so complicated
Feeling the need to self-medicate, facing complexity in life.
Feel like I never show the man behind that smile
Expressing a hidden, deeper self behind a smiling facade.
I was fading while you were praying
Experiencing a decline while others are praying, suggesting a personal struggle.
Most walked a thousand but I've walked a million miles
Highlighting a unique, extensive journey compared to others.
I could change but never will
Recognition of the possibility to change but a reluctance to do so.
The wounded me could never heal, oh yeah
Acknowledging deep emotional wounds that resist healing.
But that's alright by me
Acceptance of the current state of being.
On borrowed time I tried to steal
Attempting to extend one's time, perhaps through questionable means.
But my vices they took the wheel
Personal flaws taking control, leading in the wrong direction.
And the wrong direction set me free
Acceptance of the consequences of heading in the wrong direction.
And I hope it don't hurt you
Expressing concern for the impact on others when departing.
Boxing up the memories you miss the most
Packing away cherished memories, acknowledging the difficulty.
And I know it won't be easy
Acknowledging the challenges others will face in coping with the departure.
But I'm somewhere in that sky you're not alone
Assuring that the departed person is still present in some form.
When I go if you need me
Leaving a message for support and presence after departure.
I left a letter in the dresser that I wrote
Leaving behind a written message in a specific location.
And I know that I've been selfish
Admitting to selfish behavior and an early departure.
Gone too soon yeah that's the truth I've always known
Acknowledging an untimely end, a truth known from the beginning.
It wasn't hard to face the light with my head high
Facing challenges with resilience and dignity.
My life has come at this red light I lived fast and I loved hard
Reflecting on a life lived intensely and passionately.
I know you know so, never walked the line on that tight rope
Encouraging resilience in the face of adversity.
If you fall fight back that's how life goes you can still find your way back home
Urging to fight back after a fall and find a way back home.
Don't lose hope
Instilling hope in spite of challenges.
Gone from my room but there's no closet full of bones
Absence of dark secrets or regrets in the departed person's room.
I paved these roads
Having paved the way for others through life experiences.
Lived out my dreams but now you have to let me go
Having lived out dreams, indicating a fulfilled life.
And I hope it don't hurt you
Reiteration of concern for the impact on others.
Boxing up the memories you miss the most
Continuation of boxing up cherished memories.
And I know it won't be easy
Acknowledging the upcoming difficulty for others.
But I'm somewhere in that sky you're not alone
Reassuring others of a continued, albeit distant, presence.
When I go if you need me
Leaving a message for support after the departure.
I left a letter in the dresser that I wrote
Reiterating the presence of a written message in the dresser.
And I know that I've been selfish
Acknowledging past selfishness and its impact.
Gone too soon yeah that's the truth I've always known
Confirming the truth of an untimely departure known from the start.
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