Count It All As Lost
Finding Strength in Brokenness: August Burns Red's Powerful Reflection
Lyrics
I want to believe these words are more than letters to me
The desire for these words to hold deep personal meaning beyond their literal content.
I want to believe a covenant to stand the battlefield of time
A hope for a committed agreement to endure through the challenges of time and adversity.
Many times I've written words holding me to stay pure
Repeated attempts through writing to commit to maintaining purity or integrity.
Where is the truth in these motions, afterwards feeling motionless?
Questioning the authenticity of actions taken, feeling devoid of emotional response afterwards.
Motionless, I keep breaking my promises
Expressing a state of being stagnant or unmoving despite intentions to the contrary.
I keep breaking my word to you and I
Acknowledging repeated failure to keep promises made to oneself and another person.
I keep breaking my promises
Reiterating the continual breaking of promises or commitments.
Once again, I'm letting you down
Recognizing the act of disappointing someone yet again.
How must a broken man fix his brokenness if he's not the answer?
Pondering how someone who is internally shattered can heal without an evident solution.
I can't do this on my own, on my own
Admitting incapacity to handle things independently, seeking external support.
I need you here, I need you here, I need you here
An urgent plea for the presence and assistance of another.
Each and every day that passes leaves me worse off than before
Each passing day worsening the condition or situation, exacerbating the struggle.
Many times I've sworn
Repeatedly making solemn vows or promises.
I wouldn't look back, never look back
An assertion of not wanting to dwell on past experiences or mistakes.
Instead of fighting to be a man I just want to know who I am
An aspiration to discover personal identity rather than focusing solely on masculinity.
Fighting with my fists leaves me bloody and broken almost every single time,
Physical confrontations leading to repeated physical and emotional harm.
So I'm going at it with your strength instead of mine
Choosing to rely on external strength, possibly spiritual, instead of personal strength.
Please be my strength
A plea for divine assistance or guidance in place of personal inadequacy.
So I'm going at it with your strength instead of mine
-Please be my strength
-I've carried this burden long enough
Feeling the weight of a burden carried for an extended period.
With a heart of conviction, I've betrayed us both
An admission of betrayal despite strong personal beliefs or convictions.
I have to forfeit
Acceptance of the need to give up, surrendering to overwhelming shame.
The shame is too much to take
The shame becoming intolerable, unbearable to handle.
Take the lead and reign over me
An appeal for another entity to take control or guide the way forward.
Reign reign reign over me
-Reign reign reign over me
-You knew you'd find me here
An acknowledgment of being found in a vulnerable state, anticipated by someone else.
It took me losing sight to count it all as lost
Realizing the value of losses and hardships in finding personal direction.
For me to see that I'm finally found
Discovering oneself amidst losses, recognizing the value in this revelation.
Count it all as lost
Embracing the notion of losing everything to gain something more significant.
There's so much more to gain
Highlighting the potential for substantial growth despite apparent losses.
Count it all as lost
Embracing the notion of losing everything to gain something more significant.
Take the lead and reign over me
A repetition of the plea for guidance and leadership from an external source.
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