Wide Awake
Navigating Uncertainty: Struggling Amidst Choices
Lyrics
I'm breaking promises and breaking you apart
I am breaking promises and causing emotional harm to you.
While this constant battle rages in my mind.
There is an ongoing internal struggle or conflict in my thoughts.
Over which path to take
I am contemplating different life paths.
How much of this is fate
Uncertainty about how much of my life is predetermined by fate.
And how much is just a waste of time
Questioning the value of certain actions and if they are a waste of time.
Because I don't know just what I need
I am unsure about what I truly need.
Stuck somewhere in the in-between
Feeling stuck in an ambiguous or undecided state.
3 in the morning and I wish that I could sleep.
Expressing difficulty sleeping at 3 in the morning.
But I'm wide awake.
Despite the desire to sleep, I am fully awake.
Medicine bottle's laying empty on the floor
Empty medicine bottles symbolize failed attempts to alleviate pain.
But I still can't make these headaches go away
Despite trying, the pain and headaches persist.
More of a bastard than I've ever been before
Self-reflection on being worse or more challenging than before.
I'd be better off just bashing in my brains.
An exaggerated expression of feeling better off causing self-harm.
All this feels like it's some other life
The current situation feels detached from normal life.
Doesn't it seem way too dark tonight
Commenting on the perceived darkness or negativity in the present moment.
Because I don't know just what I need
Expressing uncertainty about personal needs.
Stuck somewhere in the in-between
Reiteration of feeling stuck in an undecided state.
3 in the morning and I'm writing this all down
Writing down thoughts at 3 in the morning as a coping mechanism.
And I hope it makes it easier somehow.
Expressing hope that writing will provide some relief or clarity.
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