Lyrics
I can't blame you if you paint me like a villain
I understand if you portray me as a villain
It's a shame you couldn't tame me, but the ride was fuckin' thrilling
It's regrettable you couldn't control me, but the experience was intensely exciting
I can't save what's been erased, but with the timing it's a grace
I cannot restore what's been lost, but the timing adds a sense of beauty
Because I noticed that you changed, and now you've turned into disgrace
Because I observed that you transformed, and now you've become a source of shame
And I'm just tryna leave the past behind us
I am attempting to move beyond our history
Love, lust, emptiness, and deep desires
Exploring themes of love, lust, emptiness, and profound desires
I clutch remedies to catch these highs as
I hold onto remedies to capture moments of intense emotion
I sit waiting as I scream in silence
I'm sitting in anticipation, expressing my inner turmoil without making a sound
You just wanna see my heart keep cryin'
You only want to witness my heart in pain
I spent months only to see you've ceased tryin'
After spending months, I realize your efforts have ceased
I clutch remedies to catch these highs as
I hold onto remedies to capture moments of intense emotion
I sit waiting as I scream in silence
I'm sitting in anticipation, expressing my inner turmoil without making a sound
You always tell me it ain't nothin' what it seems like
You consistently reassure me that appearances are deceiving
Tried to spell it out, but you a fiend for all your dream sights
I attempted to explain, but you're addicted to your own fantasies
Couldn't ring the bell, I'm with my team, and you don't see life
Unable to communicate, I'm with my team, and you don't understand life
I would wish you well, but you the streets, and I'm the green light
I would wish you well, but you represent the challenges, and I'm the signal to proceed
You wanted nothing to do with me, got nothing to prove to you
You had no interest in me, and I have nothing to prove to you
I'm chasin' something took for granted, now I'm out makin' moves
I'm pursuing something I took for granted; now I'm actively making progress
I got my options, I'll choose, I see myself lettin' loose
I have choices, I'll make decisions, and I visualize letting go
Cause you excused, and you a fool for playin' me for a deuce
Because you're forgiven, and you're foolish for treating me as insignificant
But what if I don't accept it, if I never addressed this
Contemplating not acknowledging it, if I never addressed this
We'd still be fighting back and forth, already know what the rest is
We would still be arguing, already aware of the outcome
Delete my number, don't text it, I don't wanna confess
Erase my contact, don't message me; I don't want to admit
That even though I cut you off you're still the best of my exes
That even though I ended our connection, you remain the best among my past relationships
And I'm just, tryna leave the past behind us
I am striving to move beyond our history
Love, lust, emptiness, and deep desires
Exploring themes of love, lust, emptiness, and profound desires
I clutch remedies to catch these highs as
I hold onto remedies to capture moments of intense emotion
I sit waiting as I scream in silence
I'm sitting in anticipation, expressing my inner turmoil without making a sound
You just wanna see my heart keep cryin'
You only want to witness my heart in pain
I spent months only to see you've ceased tryin'
After spending months, I realize your efforts have ceased
I clutch remedies to catch these highs as
I hold onto remedies to capture moments of intense emotion
I sit waiting as I scream in silence
I'm sitting in anticipation, expressing my inner turmoil without making a sound
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