Lyrics
How many times do I have to try?
Expressing frustration at repeated attempts.
How many times have I failed?
Acknowledging past failures.
To prove I deserve my place in life
Desiring validation for one's existence.
To myself and everyone else
Seeking approval from oneself and others.
Suffering is the solace I found
Finding comfort in suffering.
My pain has kept me spellbound
Feeling captivated by personal pain.
But death won't take me
Asserting resistance against death.
God can't erase me
Believing in personal endurance against God's will.
And you won't break me down
Refusing to be emotionally broken by others.
You won't
Reiterating strength against external influences.
Bend or break me
Asserting resilience against being manipulated.
You won't
Reaffirming strength against emotional harm.
Bend or break me down
Stating resistance to being emotionally torn down.
Absolute terror
Describing intense fear.
My ultimate fear
Personal fear of revealing vulnerabilities.
Exposing my weakness to those I hold dear
Fear of showing weaknesses to loved ones.
6 Million ways to die choose one
Highlighting numerous ways to experience death.
Swarming inside my head
Internal turmoil causing confusion.
Cloaked in darkness, blinded by death
Feeling lost and unable to perceive life clearly.
Kissing the scars I kept
Treating personal scars with tenderness.
How am I supposed to feel human?
Questioning one's own humanity due to emotional struggles.
How am I supposed to relate?
Difficulty in connecting with others due to inner turmoil.
When I can't even look you in the eyes
Avoiding direct emotional connection.
Walls I build obscure your face
Barriers preventing intimacy with others.
The Angel of the death
Symbolic references to death and sorrow.
The goddess of unhappiness
Depiction of emotional anguish.
Can't scratch the phantom itch
Unable to relieve inner discomfort.
Can't run from life the bitch
Feeling trapped in the struggles of life.
Do I deserve your love?
Questioning worthiness of love.
Am I even good enough?
Doubting personal adequacy.
Absolute terror
Reiteration of intense fear.
My ultimate fear
Personal dread of a deeply feared situation.
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