Lyrics
I'm relapsing
I am experiencing a relapse, possibly referring to a setback or regression.
Feel like the world is passing me
I feel like I'm being left behind by the world.
Lately, I'm too passionate
Lately, I've been overly passionate or emotional.
Hash the blunt and crashed the Mercedes but y'all don't know the half of it
Used drugs (hash) and had a car accident (crashed the Mercedes), and others may not know the full extent of my struggles.
You know what's actually crazy?
Expressing surprise or disbelief about a situation.
They banned abortion 'cause they trafficking babies
Commenting on the banning of abortion and the alleged trafficking of babies.
Seeing my people get massacred
Witnessing the massacre or widespread killing of the speaker's people.
Fuck being a pacifist
Rejecting the idea of being peaceful (pacifist) in the face of injustice.
Maybe the pain, paid me so much I'm such a masochist
Suggesting that the pain experienced has turned the speaker into a masochist, someone who finds pleasure in pain.
Lately, I ain't an activist
Recently, the speaker has not been an activist.
I was high on Actavis, baby, but I'm so accurate
Despite past drug use (Actavis), the speaker claims to be accurate or precise now.
I know why they actually hate me
The speaker understands why others hate them, possibly due to reimagining ancestral scriptures.
I reimagine the scriptures that all my ancestors gave me
The speaker has reimagined the teachings of their ancestors.
I painted pictures, they should've left me back in the 80s
Expressing a desire to be back in the 80s, a time when the speaker believes they would have been better understood.
I'm so different, they ended up ashy and shady
The speaker is different, and others who are not like them end up unsuccessful (ashy and shady).
I keep it classy but it's sad to say how happy it made me (crazy)
Despite being classy, the speaker finds joy in the misfortune of others.
False heroes need villains
False heroes require villains; it's a necessary balance.
Shallow hurt bitches keep speaking 'bout deep healing
Criticizing superficial individuals who talk about deep healing.
Way too expensive to pay attention to cheap women (right)
It's too costly to pay attention to insincere or shallow people.
And pride is a weak feeling
Pride is a vulnerable or fragile emotion.
I ain't doing no features, sucker free
Refusing collaborations or partnerships with others, emphasizing independence.
No leeches, each's own
Avoiding people who take advantage or cling onto others.
I was born congregation, no preachers
The speaker was born in a community setting without traditional religious leaders (preachers).
Middle-Eastern, bow features
Highlighting the speaker's Middle-Eastern background and personal characteristics (bow features).
Screens never showed us our own teachers
The education system did not showcase the speaker's own cultural role models (teachers).
And they got the nerve to wonder why they don't reach us
Criticizing societal ignorance for not understanding or connecting with the speaker's background.
I got my own reasons, fighting with my own demons
The speaker has personal reasons and struggles, fighting internal battles (demons).
Sat down and wrote this in hell, just so it's cohesive
The speaker wrote these lines in a difficult or challenging situation (hell) to ensure coherence.
My big homie caught a case at the Four Seasons
A friend faced legal trouble at a luxury hotel (Four Seasons), and the speaker supported them.
I paid the lawyer, even though I know he won't beat it
The speaker acknowledges the likely outcome of the legal case despite financial support.
Bitch, I be walking on water like I know Jesus
Expressing a sense of superiority or exceptionalism, walking on water like a divine figure (Jesus).
And I'm a giant in this whole region
Asserting dominance or importance in a particular region.
I'm counting money with my stray hand
Engaged in counting money with one hand, indicating familiarity with the process.
You know the procedure
Describing a known procedure or routine, emphasizing the speaker's experience.
You without Belly, like Kelly with no Regis
Without the speaker (Belly), it's like a TV show without one of its hosts (Kelly with no Regis).
False heroes need villains
Reiteration that false heroes necessitate villains for balance.
Shallow hurt bitches keep speaking 'bout deep healing
Repeating the critique of superficial individuals discussing deep healing.
Way too expensive to pay attention to cheap women (right)
Reiterating the high cost of paying attention to insincere or shallow people.
And pride is a weak feeling
Repeating that pride is a fragile or vulnerable emotion.
And pride is a weak feeling
Stressing again that pride is a weak emotion, possibly emphasizing its negative consequences.
And pride is a weak feeling
Final repetition underscoring the fragility of pride.
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