Lyrics
Looking at the past now
Reflecting on past experiences
Wishing I was passed out
Expressing a desire to escape or avoid reality
I don't think I want it back
Not interested in reliving the past
Never gonna catch me lack
Confident in not being caught unprepared
Fully sent
Embracing a carefree and bold attitude
I'll never spend my life
Committing to avoiding wasted time
Wasting all that time again
Not repeating past mistakes and utilizing time wisely
I Never meant
Unintentionally distancing oneself quickly
To push away so fast
Regretting the speed at which relationships were strained
I'll be lost to the very end
Being lost or disconnected until the end
I know, excuses
Acknowledging shortcomings as excuses
But it's all that I got just excuse this
Recognizing limited justifications for actions
So stupid, no usage
Self-critical, acknowledging past foolishness
Looking back at all the times I was useless
Reflecting on times of being unproductive
I don't wanna be just like before
Desire to break from past behavior
Begging for myself not to be ignored
Seeking recognition and attention for oneself
I don't think I want this anymore
Questioning current desires and aspirations
Losing sight of what I'm looking for
Feeling lost in the pursuit of goals
I'm only losing faith in the process
Losing faith in the process or journey
Feeling out of place out of context
Feeling out of place and disconnected
I never look around at my options
Overlooking available choices or opportunities
Too focused on the past it's obnoxious
Being excessively focused on past mistakes
All I know is how to live in contrast
Experiencing life in extremes
Now I'm speeding down the wrong path, I'm moving way too fast
Speeding down a self-destructive path
I tell myself to quit it over and over again
Self-admonishing for repetitive behavior
But I don't really have a plan
Lacking a clear plan for improvement
Just deal with it the best I can
Dealing with challenges as they come
I'm falling back in my grave
Falling back into destructive patterns
The home I built to stay
Feeling trapped in a self-created environment
My thoughts left in decay
Mental decay and deterioration of thoughts
No rest, I can't escape
Struggling with restlessness and inability to escape
I'll have to go and draw the line again
Setting boundaries and asserting oneself
It's all about respect, something missing to begin
Highlighting the importance of respect in relationships
I wish I had the patients just to play pretend
Wishing for patience to navigate difficult situations
But it's harder than it looks, it's so draining in the end
Recognizing the difficulty of pretending and its draining effects
But now I'm stepping out of my place
Taking a step outside of one's comfort zone
Just in case, the thoughts I kept inside were made with mistakes
Acknowledging past mistakes and addressing them
I replace, every bridge I've built that burned down with hate
Replacing damaged relationships with new efforts
No other way, to understand the reason nobody stayed
Understanding the reasons behind relationships ending
Looking at the past now
Reflecting on past experiences (repeated)
Wishing I was passed out
Expressing a desire to escape or avoid reality (repeated)
I don't think I want it back
Not interested in reliving the past (repeated)
Never gonna catch me lack
Confident in not being caught unprepared (repeated)
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