December Blues
Navigating December Blues: A Poignant Reflection on Loss and Hope
Lyrics
Another year is through
Reflecting on the completion of another year
Sitting in my room I watch the world go by
Observing the world pass by from within a confined space
Feels like I'm wasting time
Feeling like time is being wasted
Think I should go outside
Considering the idea of going outside
You said I'll be alright, it's just December blues
Being reassured about feeling down in December
But I can't shake them loose
Struggling to rid oneself of these feelings
Cos it's hard to play the game
Expressing the difficulty of participating in life's challenges
When you're terrified to lose
Fearing the consequences of failure
And I always get these nightmares
Experiencing recurring distressing dreams
Of the last time I ever hold you
Remembering the final moment of holding someone dear
Maybe when I'm older
Hope that with age, these feelings will diminish
This feeling won't last long
Anticipating a shorter duration of these emotions in the future
Maybe when I'm older
Expecting personal growth to cope better
I'll learn to carry on
Planning to learn to move forward despite challenges
I know you try your best
Acknowledging someone's effort to help
To get me out my head
Support received to escape from mental distress
It must be hell sometimes
Understanding the difficulty faced by others in supporting
When I don't feel like trying
Experiencing a lack of motivation to try
It's getting hard to sleep
Struggling with insomnia and feeling hollow
I lie awake and think and just feel emptiness
Questioning the purpose and depth of existence
There must be more than this
Expressing uncertainty about life's meaning
And it's hard to play the game
Reiterating the challenge of engaging in life's challenges
When you're terrified to lose
Reemphasizing the fear of failure
And I always get these nightmares
Recurrent haunting dreams about a past goodbye
Of the last time I ever hold you
Revisiting the final moments with someone dear
Maybe when I'm older
Hope that maturity will reduce these feelings
This feeling won't last long
Expectation of a shorter duration of distress in the future
Maybe when I'm older
Anticipating personal growth to cope better in the future
I'll learn to carry on
Planning to learn to move forward despite difficulties ahead
I'm terrified
Expressing fear and anxiety
I can't shake loose
Feeling unable to rid oneself of these emotions
I'm paralysed
Feeling stuck and unable to act
My December blues
Summarizing the state of feeling down in December
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