Colder Shower
Chasing Shadows in a Colder Shower: Beth Van Rose's Melancholic Love Journey
Lyrics
Is it that I'm young?
Questioning whether youth plays a role in the situation
That I gave myself a face to dream
Creating an image or an ideal version of oneself
That when I don't have you to think about
Feeling worse when not occupied with thoughts of the person
It's worse than when I see you leave
Experiencing heightened sadness when the person leaves
Somewhere far away
Referencing distance between individuals
Overcome, overdressed and overseas
Feeling overwhelmed in unfamiliar places and situations
I wanna force a little love into my heart
Desiring to force oneself to feel love
Then hate the deepness of that feeling
Disliking the intensity of deep emotions
So will I grow it out?
Contemplating personal growth amidst emotional challenges
All the thrills of secret love
Thrilling sensation of a secretive romantic relationship
Dressed all black from head to toe
Symbolic clothing choice reflecting emotions
Red on my ride home
Emphasizing emotional intensity with the color red
Colder shower
Desiring emotional relief or detachment
I need colder shower
Expressing the need for a drastic emotional break
My body shivers at the sight
Feeling physically affected by emotional distress
Of all the places where we crossed
Reflecting on shared experiences and encounters
The people we both know of
Acknowledging mutual acquaintances
It came to a point where this adrenaline is getting addicting
Becoming addicted to the rush of intense emotions
I find myself depicting each
Obsessing over thoughts about the person
Thought of you
Linking personal thoughts to creative expression
Every line I write
Feeling unable to contain emotions
Cause I can't hold it in
Clutching onto the situation despite difficulty
All I can do is hold on
Enduring despite feeling overwhelmed
Thought lust smells like roses, goes from hot to stone
Comparing initial attraction to a pleasant scent, now disillusioned
Turns out it's just smoke, cologne and Babylon
Realizing initial attraction was deceptive
Will I grow it out?
Reiterating contemplation of personal growth
All the thrills of secret love
Reiteration of the secretive thrill in love
Dressed all black from head to toe
Repeating emotional attire symbolism
Red on my ride home
Reinforcing emotional intensity during departure
Tear my clothes and run
Expressing the need for a drastic change
I need to cool it off
Desiring emotional cooldown
I need a colder shower
Reiterating the need for a significant emotional break
My head might start to float
Sensory and emotional overload leading to detachment
So amused, you are my muse
Admiration and inspiration derived from the person
Where did I sign up?
Questioning the decision to involve oneself in the situation
Where's the cure for this?
Seeking a solution or relief from emotional turmoil
Where can I resign?
Expressing a desire to withdraw from the situation
Where's my morning kiss?
Longing for affection or intimacy
Oh God, what can I do?
Expressing a feeling of helplessness or desperation
What can I do?
Questioning possible solutions or actions
Is it that I'm young?
Repeating the initial question about youth's role
That I gave myself a face to dream
Reiterating the creation of an idealized self
That when I don't have you to think about
Highlighting the impact of thoughts when the person is absent
It's worse than when I see you leave
Emphasizing the intensified sadness upon departure
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