Lyrics
From the first time I was awake
Expressing awareness since the first moment of consciousness.
I haven't had no other way
Life has been consistently one way without deviation.
But there ain't no differences to be
Not perceiving any significant distinctions.
But there ain't no differences to me
Emphasizing a lack of concern for differences.
This one won't be just a dumb mistake
A commitment not to repeat past foolish errors.
I take my hand and touch your face
Physically connecting with a person by touching their face.
I know you're not listening to me
Acknowledging that the listener is not attentive.
I know you're not listening to me
Reiteration of the lack of attention from the listener.
Before I was too old, I couldn't stop, I squeezed it to the drop
Reflecting on youthful impulsivity, possibly with regret.
And now there ain't nothing left for me
Feeling depleted or lacking purpose.
No God, there ain't nothing left for me
Expressing a sense of hopelessness or abandonment by God.
Before the bombs fell right in my street
Referencing a past event, possibly a traumatic one.
You came over and laid on my sheets
Describing a moment of intimacy on bedsheets.
I don't wanna know what you think of me
Expressing a desire to remain ignorant of others' opinions.
I don't wanna know what you think of me
Reiteration of the desire to remain unaware of judgment.
When I was so young I didn't know
Recalling a time of innocence with limited choices.
I had no other place to go
Having no alternative options or places to go.
And now there ain't no escape for me
Feeling trapped or lacking the ability to escape.
And now there ain't no escape for me
Reiteration of a sense of entrapment or hopelessness.
Even after I had came out
Discussing the challenges even after revealing one's true self.
It didn't stop all the self doubt
Continuing self-doubt despite personal revelations.
I don't know anything about myself
Expressing a lack of self-knowledge.
I don't know anything about myself
Reiteration of the lack of self-awareness.
For all those years, I was alone
Recalling a period of isolation and loneliness.
And at your place it felt like home
Finding a sense of belonging at someone else's place.
And now I got nowhere to be free
Feeling without a place to be oneself freely.
And now I got nowhere to be free
Reiteration of the absence of a free space.
And from the start of my stupid life
Expressing a lifelong concern for someone else.
I've cared about yours more than mine
Prioritizing the well-being of another over oneself.
So how am I just supposed to leave?
Questioning how to depart from a significant connection.
So how am I just supposed to leave?
Reiteration of the difficulty in leaving a significant relationship.
And I know that I wasn't your first choice or your last
Acknowledging not being the first or last choice, pledging to make amends.
But I will try to make it all up to you
Expressing commitment to rectify past mistakes.
And I know you'll never be nobody's second best
Affirming the listener's unique value.
You're so much better than the rest and you don't know
Complimenting the listener's exceptional qualities.
But if I am with you I'm okay to finish last
Willingness to endure challenges for the sake of the relationship.
Jeremiah, I won't break you down at all
Promising not to harm or degrade the listener.
And I'd break my back just to feel your hands around my neck
Expressing a willingness to go to great lengths for physical closeness.
Jeremiah, I'll be what you want me to
Reaffirming readiness to be whatever the listener desires.
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