Dinner
Unveiling Heartache: Blood Orange's Dinner Chronicles Emotional Turmoil
Lyrics
Always on your own, don't consider trying
Feeling isolated and independent, not considering seeking help or support.
I tried you on the phone, but you considered lying
Attempted communication through phone, but the other person is suspected of dishonesty.
Never had a doubt i'm losing
Confident about the inevitability of a loss or failure.
So I'm tidying my room and trying to be careful,
Engaged in organizing and cleaning personal space while being cautious.
Drinking in the afternoon and lighting up whilst tearful
Drinking and smoking in sadness during the afternoon.
Hoping that you're still unhappy
Expressing a desire for the other person to remain unhappy.
I'll do everything I can to make sure that you are never happy
Determined to prevent the other person from experiencing happiness.
Breaking out of this cocoon and clawing a the camera
Metaphorically breaking free from a restrictive state and confronting the public eye.
Seeing you would be too soon, I'm stupid if I want more
Ambivalent about the timing of encountering the other person, acknowledging the potential for foolishness.
Hoping that you die unhappy
Expressing a strong desire for the other person to die unhappy.
I'll do anything I can, to make sure that you are never happy
Commitment to taking any necessary action to ensure the other person's perpetual unhappiness.
Never had a doubt I'm losing
Reiterating the certainty of experiencing a loss or defeat.
So unsure of every question in the dark
Feeling uncertain and in the dark about every question or aspect of life.
Trying hard not to make of with anything you gave me
Struggling not to derive meaning or satisfaction from anything received from the other person.
I'm so scared and down on friends so please pretend there is no end
Expressing fear, loneliness, and a need for companionship while pretending that there is no end to friendships.
Trying not to be a victim in your game
Attempting not to become a victim in the manipulative game played by the other person.
Know your dirty ways and know you feel the same
Acknowledging knowledge of the other person's deceitful ways and shared emotions.
It kills me deep inside, I hope you cry when you see what you have inside
Feeling intense emotional pain, wishing for the other person to experience similar pain upon self-reflection.
Never had a doubt I'm losing
Repeating the acknowledgment of an impending loss or failure.
I'll do everything I can, to make sure that you are never happy
Reiterating the commitment to do everything possible to ensure the other person's eternal unhappiness.
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