Big Smoke
Navigating Heartache: Unveiling the Emotional Depths in Blood Youth's 'Big Smoke'
Lyrics
I could tell you tales of misery that would tear you apart
I could share stories of intense suffering that would deeply affect you emotionally.
Cold shoulder left without a home and the will to give up
Feeling ignored or neglected, left without a sense of belonging or a desire to give up.
I am nothing but reliable so why do you let me down?
I am consistently dependable, so why do you disappoint or fail me?
Shown you nothing but loyalty even when you werenʼt around
I've shown unwavering faithfulness even in your absence.
Your eyes tell me things your heart never could
Your eyes reveal things that your emotions or true feelings never express.
At least I felt something something you never would
At least I experienced some emotions, unlike you who seemed emotionally distant.
Filled my lungs with the big smoke but it was just not to be
I immersed myself in distractions (possibly substances like smoking) to escape, but it didn't work out.
I could never learn to look after me
I couldn't learn to take care of myself properly.
I had to leave, when I knew this was becoming a strain
I had to depart when I realized this situation was becoming too burdensome.
Do now you know what it feels like?
Do you now understand the emotional weight of this situation?
Iʼve been looking for someone to save me from this hell
I've been searching for someone to rescue me from this agony.
Nothing could be further from the truth
The reality is far from what people think or assume.
Still no sign of changing pace
No indication of a change in the speed or direction of events.
How long can this take?
How much longer will this situation continue?
These reoccurring dreams still keeping me awake
Repeated distressing dreams continue to keep me awake.
Do you know what his has done to me?
Do you understand the impact this has had on me?
Irregular and far apart
Occurring irregularly and at distant intervals.
The sense of knowing my state of heart
Understanding or being aware of my emotional condition.
Without you Iʼm half the man I used to be
Without you, I feel incomplete compared to my previous self.
I know that weʼre searching
Both of us are searching for our identities or purposes.
Still finding ourselves
We're still in the process of discovering who we are.
I had to leave,
I had to depart,
When I knew this was becoming a strain
When I knew this situation was becoming too burdensome.
Do now you know what it feels like?
Do you now understand the emotional weight of this situation?
Iʼve been looking for someone to save me from this hell
I've been seeking someone to rescue me from this agony.
Nothing could be further from the truth
The reality is far from what people think or assume.
Still no sign of changing pace how long can this take?
No indication of a change in the speed or direction of events. How much longer will this situation continue?
These reoccurring dreams still keeping me awake
Repeated distressing dreams continue to keep me awake.
Can you warn me next time youʼre fading out,
If you're withdrawing or losing interest, please inform me beforehand. I can't bear to witness our relationship falling apart.
I canʼt stand to see us breaking down
Seeing our relationship deteriorate is unbearable for me.
Hell is just a word reality is so much worse.
The word 'hell' is inadequate to describe the harshness of reality.
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