Lyrics
My phone lit up the other day
Reflecting on a recent call or message received on the phone.
My heart stopped when i saw your name
Experiencing a strong emotional reaction upon seeing the caller's name.
30 minutes of small talk
Engaging in a 30-minute conversation with the person.
Kept my cool then I hung up
Maintaining composure during the conversation and ending the call.
Then i thought of all the things i didn't say
Regretting missed opportunities to express thoughts during the conversation.
I wish I
Expressing a desire to have communicated more effectively.
Told you all the ways that you let me down
Desiring to communicate how the person has disappointed or let the speaker down.
Like back in June when I hit the ground
Recalling a specific incident in June and feeling let down.
And I spent six months waiting on your call
Waiting for a call for six months after the mentioned incident.
Wish I'd
Expressing a wish to have addressed the ways the person misrepresented their concern.
Brought up all the ways that you made it seem
Desiring to bring attention to the person's insincere actions.
Like you gave a shit about me
Feeling unimportant and uncared for in the relationship.
How all you ever made me feel was small
Conveying that the person consistently made the speaker feel insignificant.
I wish i said it all
Expressing a desire to have communicated all these feelings.
But it probably wouldn't change a thing
Realizing that expressing these feelings might not have changed the outcome.
I'd still end up taking all the blame
Anticipating taking blame regardless of the communication.
For something that you said
Expecting to be held responsible for something said by the person.
And I'd be the bad friend
Acknowledging the likelihood of being perceived as a bad friend.
You'd still hurt my feelings either way
Knowing that the person's actions would hurt regardless of communication.
I wish I
Reiterating the desire to express feelings of being let down.
Told you all the ways that you let me down
Recalling the June incident and the resulting disappointment.
Like back in June when i hit the ground
Waiting for a call for six months after feeling let down.
And i spent six months waiting on your call
Reiterating the desire to address the person's misleading actions.
Wish I'd
Expressing a wish to have pointed out the person's lack of genuine concern.
Brought up all the ways that you made it seem
Desiring to highlight the person's apparent lack of care.
Like you gave a shit about me
Stating that the person never genuinely cared about the speaker.
How all you ever made me feel was small
Reiterating the consistent feeling of being small in the relationship.
I wish i said it all
Expressing a wish to have communicated all these feelings.
I wish I said it all
Repeating the desire to have said everything that needed to be said.
I hate the way you never listened
Expressing frustration with the person's lack of attentive listening.
And I hate the way that I still miss ya
Expressing lingering emotions and missing the person despite negative aspects.
You never cared about me did ya
Questioning the person's genuine care and concern for the speaker.
I wish I
Reiterating the desire to express feelings of being let down.
Told you all the ways that you let me down
Expressing frustration and a need to communicate the letdown.
Cuz I'm so sick of telling myself
Expressing weariness of self-deception and denial.
How all you ever made me feel was small
Acknowledging the consistent negative impact of the person on the speaker's self-esteem.
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