Lyrics
Yeah
Expression of affirmation or agreement
I'm not on anybody's timeline but they keep me posted
Despite not actively participating, others keep updated about me
I stay home like stage five lockdown peak in Covid
Comparing staying at home to a strict lockdown during the peak of Covid-19
Heard of me but never see me like I'm Phiri Joseph
Known of but rarely seen, similar to a mysterious figure
Yeah
Reiteration of agreement or affirmation
Things not going well for me
Experiencing hardships or difficulties
And that is nothing but a mass attack
Feeling overwhelmed by challenges or obstacles
I'm the type to send my people up just a like a mass attack
Willingness to support friends or allies in a unified effort
All this stagnance now we all static
Feeling stuck or immobile collectively
Hope the future looking bright
Hopeful about the future, wanting to move beyond past difficulties
So I can burn my past and boast at it
Desire to overcome past challenges and proudly acknowledge it
Pins and needles on my body
Physical sensation akin to discomfort or anxiety
Take my pain so I can poke at it
Wishing to confront and understand personal pain
Break some bread so we can toast at it
Sharing and celebrating success or achievements together
But people toxic and intoxicated
Observation of people being harmful and under the influence
No point in actin benign
No point in pretending to be harmless or innocent
I've been on many roads, I'm still not seeing no signs
Despite experiences, still unable to find direction
You would swear the windscreen got invisible blinds
Comparing lack of clarity to a windshield with invisible blinds
Tired of sobbing, when you ask me how I'm doing
Tired of expressing sadness when asked about well-being
I'm fine
Responding positively when asked about well-being despite inner turmoil
But I'm contemplating right between suicide and crime
Contemplating extreme actions due to hardships faced
You tell me "face your fears" when I face that shit like everyday
Frequently confronting fears without resolution
Tell me "wipe your tears" but they on my pillow anyway
Tears are shed regardless of attempts to suppress emotions
Since I'm broke and unemployed
Financially unstable and without employment
When I Weather through the storm in May, might as well call me Floyd
Enduring difficulties akin to enduring a storm
I had several managers, still couldn't fill the void
Various attempts at finding fulfillment or purpose through management
I was self employed eventually, still couldn't see the coins
Even self-employment didn't bring expected success or wealth
When the government keeps you dry
Government assistance doesn't alleviate financial struggles
And you can't make her moist
Wondering about reasons for emotional numbness despite external help
Then you wonder why?
Feeling emotionally distant despite favorable conditions
I'm always feeling cold in the summer time
Feeling emotionally cold despite being in a typically warm situation
Different typa music when you listen to your mother cry
Listening to distressing sounds, like a mother's cry
Different typa ray when you looking at the thunder shine
Experiencing a unique perspective during moments of natural power
I carry pain like a cargo load
Bearing and carrying emotional pain
When it rains it pours, purple reign in the styrofoam
Experiencing overwhelming emotional stress similar to intoxication
I'm outgoing but like TVs, I stay remote
Outwardly social but internally maintaining emotional distance
Shit tends to spiral when we try to gain complete control
Struggling when attempting to control everything
I feel dead, it's like I'm breathing but a bleeding soul
Feeling lifeless despite being physically alive
It's like I'm breathing but really I'm just a leaving soul
Feeling disconnected or detached from life
"Instagram is like an advert for the life you don't live, you know
Commentary on the misleading nature of social media
So... if that seeps into your head like uhh... you know, for long enough?
Impact of prolonged exposure to idealized lives on confidence
You're gonna have no confidence, you know?
The importance of learning self-acceptance and contentment
So you really gotta teach yourself to be happy with - with who you are."
Reflecting on the inner turmoil and self-reflection
Soliloquies of a Two-K, uh!
Summary title referencing introspective musings in the song
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