Lyrics
Reality's a dream
Reality is perceived as a dream.
A game in which I seem
Life is a game where the speaker appears unsure of their identity.
To never find out just what I am
The speaker struggles to understand their true self.
I don't know if I'm an actor or ham
Uncertainty about being an actor or a fraud.
A shamen or sham
Reference to being genuine or fake.
But if you don't mind
Expression of willingness to accept uncertainty.
I don't mind
Reassurance that the speaker is okay with uncertainty.
I'm lost without a clue
The speaker feels lost and clueless.
How can I undo
Desire to undo the complicated situations created.
The tangle of these webs I keep weaving
Acknowledgment of weaving complicated webs of life.
I don't know if I should be believing
Doubt about whether to believe in these complexities.
Deceptive, perceiving
Mention of deceptive perceptions.
But if you don't mind
Expression of acceptance of uncertainty.
I don't mind
Reiteration of acceptance despite uncertainties.
I used to bet that you didn't care
Previous belief that the other person didn't care.
But gambling never got me anywhere
Regret about the ineffectiveness of gambling.
Each time I used to feel so sure
Confidence eroded due to doubt about the person.
Something about you made me doubt you more
Something in the person's behavior increases doubt.
How can you convince me
Questioning how to be convinced when everything feels negative.
When everything I see
Doubtful perception of actions.
Just makes me feel you're putting me down
Feeling put down by the person's actions.
And if it's true this pathetic clown'll
Even if true, the speaker continues to be present.
Keep hanging around
Willingness to persist despite difficulties.
That's if you don't mind
Acceptance of the situation if the other person is okay with it.
I don't mind
Reassurance of acceptance despite uncertainties.
I used to bet that you didn't care
Recurrence of the theme of the other person not caring.
But gambling never got me anywhere
Reflecting on the unproductive nature of gambling.
Each time I used to be so sure
Reiteration of confidence turning into doubt.
Something about you made me doubt you more
Continued doubt about the other person.
I used think you hate me when you call me on the phone
Perception of potential dislike in various situations.
And sometimes when we go out I wish I'd stayed at home
Regret about social situations with the person.
And when I'm dreaming or just lying in my bed
Insecurity and doubt even in dreams and solitude.
I think you've got it in for me
Belief that the person is against the speaker.
Is it all in my head is it in my head
Questioning the validity of feelings.
How can you convince me
Reiteration of the challenge to be convinced amidst negativity.
When everything I see
Continued doubtful perception of actions.
Just makes me feel you're putting me down
Feeling emotionally put down by the person.
And if it's true this pathetic clown'll
Commitment to persist despite challenges.
Keep hanging around
Willingness to continue in the face of difficulties.
That's if you don't mind
Acceptance if the other person is okay with it.
I don't mind
Reassurance of acceptance despite uncertainties.
I don't mind
Repetition of acceptance despite uncertainties.
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