Lyrics
Hey bro i just wanted to call
Expressing the desire to connect with a friend.
And i know we've been dreaming about this life
Acknowledging shared dreams of a particular lifestyle since childhood.
Since we were kids man this is... this is crazy
Reflecting on the surreal nature of the current situation.
I'm out here doing it but... I'm struggling man
Struggling with the challenges of pursuing that dream.
All I'm thinking about is being back home with you and... family... Shit
Longing to be back home with family, feeling conflicted.
I never thought it would be this hard bro
Expressing surprise at the difficulty faced.
It's like a war with myself that I just cant win
Describing an internal struggle, a personal conflict.
Dreaming of this life on the road
Dreaming of a life on the road, away from home.
Without knowing how much it would cost
Realizing the unforeseen costs of pursuing that dream.
It's eating me
Feeling consumed or burdened by the dream.
I always knew what i wanted
Always knowing what was wanted in life.
I never thought of the actions that i had to take
Not considering the actions needed to achieve the dream.
It's eating me
Experiencing inner turmoil due to the realization.
As you stood there singing praise
Observing someone praising while facing personal struggles.
Wondering when you're alone if this is just a phase
Contemplating if the current situation is just a passing phase.
(With your life) with your life placed (By my) by my absence
Highlighting the impact of one's absence on another's life.
That's what the people have known
Recognition of the public perception of leaving loved ones behind.
Leaving my loved ones all alone
Acknowledging the impact of departure on close relationships.
With my heart at my home
Feeling a connection to home despite physical absence.
The light at the end is getting harder to see
Expressing difficulty in seeing the positive outcome of the journey.
My fear is this
Identifying a specific fear related to the situation.
The mask that i wear is slowly becoming me
Noting the transformation of a facade into one's true self.
Dreaming of this life on the road
Reiteration of the dream of a life on the road.
Without knowing how much it would cost
Reemphasizing the lack of awareness regarding the challenges.
It's eating me alive
Expressing the overwhelming impact of the situation.
I always knew what i wanted (Wanted)
Reiterating always knowing one's life goal.
I never thought of the actions that i had to take
Reflecting on not anticipating the necessary actions.
It's eating me eating me alive
Highlighting the consuming nature of the internal conflict.
These moments
Acknowledging the importance of shared moments.
Mean nothing without you here
Expressing a need for the presence of a significant other.
I need you
Affirming a personal need for connection.
I always envisioned this differently
Contrasting the current reality with previous expectations.
This pain this conflict its killing me
Describing the emotional pain and conflict within.
Something has to change
Acknowledging the necessity for change in the current situation.
I need you and they need me
Balancing personal needs with external expectations.
This constant war inside my head
Describing an ongoing internal struggle.
Am i... going insane
Questioning one's mental stability in the face of conflict.
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