A.Y.D.
Choosing Myself: A Heartrending Battle of Pain and Confusion
Lyrics
And all you do, I see right through
Observing your actions clearly, seeing beyond your facade
I carry pain, know that you do too
I bear emotional suffering, acknowledging that you do as well
You're so confusing
Your behavior is perplexing, hard to understand
This war I'm losing
I'm losing a difficult internal conflict or struggle
I can't help choosing myself
Despite everything, I prioritize my own well-being
And all you do, I see right through
Similar to line 1: Understanding your actions and intentions
I carry pain, know that you do too
Reiterating the shared experience of carrying emotional pain
You're so confusing
Reaffirming confusion regarding your behavior
This war I'm losing
Reiterating the internal struggle or conflict being lost
I can't help choosing myself over you
Despite the difficulty, I prioritize myself above you
You went and wasted every chance that I gave you
You squandered every opportunity I offered
Made a mistake in thinking that I could change you
I erred in believing I could change who you are
I should have known that you never cared at all
Realization that you never genuinely cared
You're too heartless
You lack empathy or compassion
I take the fall, every time and
I take responsibility or blame each time
If I'm bein' honest
Being truthful, expressing genuine dislike or hatred
Man, I hate you
Strongly disliking your actions or character
I can't count how many times I've tried to break loose
Repeated attempts to free myself from this situation
Seems like every single time you make a breakthrough
Despite progress, you revert to hurting me repeatedly
You just go back on yo promises and hurt me
Your broken promises cause pain and harm
I'm done arguing
Resolute decision not to engage in further arguments
Don't want to hear you try to play the victim anymore
Refusing to accept a victimized role from you anymore
I'm leavin' for good
Decisively leaving without formal goodbyes
No goodbyes or farewells
Explaining departure due to the suffering caused
Cause you put me through hell
Expressing the intense pain caused by your actions
And all you do, I see right through
Repetition of understanding your true nature and actions
I carry pain, know that you do too
Reiteration of shared emotional burden
You're so confusing
Restating confusion caused by your behavior
This war I'm losing
Reiterating the internal struggle or conflict being lost
I can't help choosing myself over you
Continuing to prioritize my own well-being over yours
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