Lyrics
These days I don't look around much
Feeling disconnected, not observing surroundings
I stare at the screen until the dawn
Engrossed with a screen until morning
Tell myself what I want to hear
Self-affirmation of desired beliefs
Tell myself just ignore the fear
Attempting to disregard fear
No point in placing any blame
Avoiding assigning fault
These days I don't bow to a soul
Not yielding to anyone
I stay driven insane by the dithering droll
Driven crazy by meaningless talk
Keeping in mind the kindness of scale
Remembering the insignificance of personal existence
That I'm a grain of sand in a pale
Realizing smallness in the grand scheme
Lugged around by some little kid
Feeling controlled by insignificant forces
I am bored of the pain the anger disdain
Fed up with pain, anger, and contempt
I am bored of how I still hurt me
Tired of self-inflicted hurt
Like a rat in the wall, heeding tragedy's call
Comparing oneself to a trapped creature, drawn to tragedy
A monster that wants to be seen
Expressing the desire to be acknowledged despite flaws
But like Mahler in two, I will breathe and come to
Drawing inspiration from Mahler's resilience
Rising up, like the dust after rest
Rising again after a period of rest, like dust
What was created must perish
Recognition of the impermanence of creations
What perished will rise again
Belief in the cyclical nature of things
Cease from trembling
Encouragement to stop being afraid
Prepare to live
Get ready to truly live
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