Across Five Years
Unveiling Life's Hidden Struggles: Across Five Years
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I said I'm crazy one more time
I expressed my mental instability again
Picked up the phone and wondered why
I answered the phone and questioned its purpose
So many years of hidden dreams
Many years of concealed aspirations
Pushed down too far to ever win
Suppressed too deeply to ever succeed
Locked doors
Secured or inaccessible doors
And hidden ghosts
Concealed memories or haunting thoughts
Denied myself with every joke
Refused my true self with every self-deprecating joke
This was not me
Recognition that this behavior was not a true reflection of myself
This could never be me
Realization that this version of myself could never truly exist
Remembering so many times
Recalling numerous occasions
So many lies so many lies
Many instances of deceit
Ran so fast the years passed blind
Ran quickly through life without clear perception
So much time lost killing five
Significant time lost, metaphorically killing five years
Locked doors
Secured or inaccessible doors (repeated)
And hidden ghosts
Concealed memories or haunting thoughts (repeated)
Denied myself with every joke
Refused my true self with every self-deprecating joke (repeated)
This is not me
Recognition that this behavior was not a true reflection of myself (repeated)
This could never be me
Realization that this version of myself could never truly exist (repeated)
Whatever poison you may drink
Any harmful substance you consume
Another list of "no's" persist
Another set of negative responses persists
Antique and out of reach
Old-fashioned and unattainable
I lose my life and take it back
I give up my life and reclaim it
Crashed this side of happiness
Crashed on the side of joy or contentment
Hit the floor or hit and miss
Fell to the ground or experienced success by chance
Without the strength to follow through
Without the strength to follow through with actions
Walked right past this life in you
Passed by the opportunity for a meaningful life within you
Just one more kiss
Request for one more intimate moment
Just one more chance
Request for one more opportunity
Just one more life
Request for one more life under certain conditions
Of circumstance
Desiring one more life based on circumstances
Just one more call
Request for one more communication
Taking a chance
Taking a risk based on circumstances
On circumstance
On a chance occurrence or situation
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