Ship Song
Navigating Loss: A Poetic Journey Through Unfelt Emotions
Lyrics
I got the call that my friend was gone
I received the news that my friend had passed away.
He drifted off one day and something went wrong
He drifted away unexpectedly, and something went wrong.
I felt the pressure up against my skin
I felt intense pressure against my skin.
But no emotion got in
Despite the pressure, I couldn't express any emotion.
Something inside was too afraid to feel it
Internally, I was too scared to confront my feelings.
I was too afraid to feel it
I was afraid to experience the emotions related to the loss.
I took a drive to sort through our past
I took a drive to reflect on our shared history.
Inside a notebook, we would draw throughout class
We used to draw in a notebook during classes.
I remembered we would draw sailing ships
We used to draw images of sailing ships.
But then my memory slipped
But my memory failed me, and I forgot.
Something inside was too afraid to feel it
Internally, fear prevented me from fully embracing the memories.
I was too afraid to feel it
I was still too scared to confront those emotions.
I think that I was unprepared
I wasn't ready for the impact of the loss.
To find out how much I really cared
Realizing the depth of my caring was overwhelming.
I parked the car and sat in silence a while
I parked the car and sat in silence, contemplating.
I told myself that this pain was part of being alive
I convinced myself that the pain was an inevitable part of life.
Then it was time to let myself collapse
Eventually, I allowed myself to break down emotionally.
And I tried to cry but I just laughed
Despite trying to cry, I found myself laughing instead.
Something inside was too afraid to feel it
Fear continued to hinder my ability to fully feel the emotions.
I was too afraid to feel it
I remained too afraid to confront the depth of my grief.
I think that I was unprepared
Again, I wasn't prepared for the intensity of my emotions.
To find out how much I really cared
Discovering the extent of my caring caught me off guard.
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