Its Not Me
Redemption's Cry: A Soul Lost, A Love Regained
Lyrics
I wanted to call you up, but you probably wouldn't know me
I desired to reach out to you, but you might not recognize me
Cuz the man I am right now aint exactly who I want to be
The person I am currently is not who I aspire to be
I know this road gets hard darlin' yeah its hard on me too
I acknowledge that this journey is challenging, and it affects me deeply
And I can't deny all the hell and the lies I put you through
I can't ignore the difficulties and falsehoods I subjected you to
Ohhhh baby forgive me
Expressing remorse and seeking forgiveness
You know I stay high and this road can get lonely
Admitting to using substances to cope, and recognizing the isolation on this path
Ohhhh honey will you rescue me
Pleading for support and rescue from the person he has become
From this kid I become, girl you know its not me
Acknowledging the deviation from his true self and the impact on the relationship
Its not me
Reiterating that the current state is not his true self
Its not me
Emphasizing again that the present situation is not representative of who he really is
I heard you found a new man, and your gona marry him
Learning about a new man in the ex-partner's life and a sarcastic response to their impending marriage
Well that's funny as hell baby, I know you don't love him
Expressing doubt about the ex-partner's true feelings for the new man
No that aint the way its supposed to be at least in my head
Contrasting the current situation with his expectations or desires
You can tell how I'm doing from the shape that I'm in
Suggesting that his well-being is evident from his current condition
Ohhhh baby forgive me
Repeating the plea for forgiveness, acknowledging the struggles with substances, and loneliness
You know I stay high and this road can get lonely
Reiterating the impact of staying high and the isolation of the journey
Ohhhh honey will you rescue me
Asking for rescue and support from the difficulties he is facing
From this kid I become, girl you know its not me
Acknowledging the divergence from his true self and its effect on the relationship
Its not me
Reiterating that the current state is not his true self
Its not me
Emphasizing again that the present situation is not representative of who he really is
Its not me
Further emphasizing that the current state is not his true self
Its not me
Continuing to stress that the present situation is not representative of who he really is
Its not me
Repeating the assertion that the current state is not his true self
Its not me
Reiterating that the current situation does not reflect his true self
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