Spent on Rainy Days
Embracing Shadows in Rain: A Tale of Self-Reflection and Redemption
Lyrics
I wish I saved it for rainy days
I regret not saving it for difficult times.
'Cause they're the hardest to stay dry
Rainy days are challenging, and it's hard to avoid getting emotionally affected.
Got no self control
There is a lack of self-discipline or restraint.
I'm always beggin' into telephones
Constantly seeking help or support through phone conversations.
And then I
Transition to a different situation or topic.
I bought a little from my brother's friend
Purchasing substances from a sibling's friend for coping.
Yeah, well just to get me by
Buying substances to manage life's challenges temporarily.
I don't trust his cut
Doubting the quality of the purchased substances.
The effect's never as high as the markup
The desired effect is not as strong as the cost markup suggests.
I think I'll print it in the personals
Considering advertising in personal ads to find a companion.
That I'm looking for a match
Expressing a desire for a match or partner.
Someone to light me up
Seeking someone to bring excitement into life.
Someone to burn the proof of the things that I've done
Desiring someone to help erase the evidence of past mistakes.
Each day there's hours
Every day feels like it passes quickly.
skip like a stone
Comparing time to a skipping stone, suggesting a lack of stability.
I just crawl in a bag
Retreating or escaping reality by getting into a bag, possibly a metaphor for substance use.
I'm gonna live my life like somebody's shadow
Choosing to live in someone's shadow rather than facing life head-on.
I know I'm lazy with the little things
Admitting laziness in handling small responsibilities.
I mean I never held a door
Despite shortcomings, there was deep love.
But I still loved you more
Expressing that love transcends minor imperfections.
Then anyone; Since or before
Comparing love to others, asserting its uniqueness and significance.
You're always saying that I owe you one
Acknowledging a perceived debt or obligation in the relationship.
Well lets consolidate this debt
Suggesting a need to address and consolidate the issues in the relationship.
Get on a payment plan
Proposing a strategy to improve the relationship by exchanging positive gestures for negative treatment.
I'll pay compliments, you can still treat me bad
Admitting that leaving the relationship and the town is challenging.
But, now this isn't getting easier
Expressing the difficulty of moving on.
to leave you and this town behind
Planning to travel and asking friends to convey a positive image after departure.
I'll do some travelin'
Feeling like an ignored or discarded object.
Once I'm gone tell all our friend you've got even
Humorous suggestion that friends should pretend everything is fine after the departure.
I felt like an object, been set aside
Feeling like an object set aside and overlooked.
You know, I'm back on the shelve
Returning to being available but not necessarily valued.
Not locked in the drawer
No longer hidden away, but still not the primary focus.
I'm mint in the box
Being in perfect condition but undervalued.
But you'd still sell me for cost
Despite being valuable, the person feels they could be easily discarded.
Pull out a parachute
Suggesting a need to escape or find safety.
A blanket on top of you
Symbolic gesture of protection using a blanket.
The window you're looking through
Observing the world through a metaphorical window.
Pull out a parachute
Reiterating the need for protection and escape.
Pull out a parachute
Reinforcing the idea of seeking safety or escape.
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