Boy

Addressing a person as "Boy."

Warning the person not to call anyone else home; emphasizing that the speaker is their home and the only one they should rely on.

You better not call no one home

I am your home boy

Don't you rely on no one

Don't you reply to no one

No one but me Boy

Repetition of the warning, reinforcing the idea that the speaker is the only one the person should rely on.

You better not call no one home

You better not call no one home

I am your home boy

Don't you rely on no one

Don't you reply to no one

No one but me Boy

You better not call no one home

You better not call no one home

I am your home boy

Don't you rely on no one

Don't you reply to no one

No one but me Boy

Expressing frustration about being called "mister" while someone else is referred to as "dad," highlighting feelings of inadequacy and a sense of something missing.

She call you dad

So there's something missing

I'm lost for words when you in the house because

I'm not revered like my mom and sister damn

Observing the struggles in the household, with the speaker feeling unappreciated compared to their hardworking mother.

You come in this house looking beat and broke

My mom working hard at her job and y'all start off arguments

Man what is a freaking family dinner

Reflecting on the discomfort of calling the person "pops" and the impact it had on the speaker's emotions.

Never called son by a man until nineteen years and it still is a time to remember

Expressing emotional pain and the difficulty of coping with abandonment, with family members trying to fill the void.

You ain't the one that I need

But I one that I need left me

Now I mom and my aunt tryna fill the freaking void of me being left alone cut deep

Describing the loneliness and challenges faced after being left alone, now residing in Maryland.

Houston all alone only time we together was when we at church

Wait what's worse

Now I'm all alone in apartments because my aunt always at work

Expressing detachment from the concept of home and the difficulty in maintaining connections with friends.

I don't even call home no more

Do I even home no more

I can't even be away from my friends for like a couple of days without thinking we ain't close no more

Anticipating people leaving, coupled with unsettling dreams and a sense of abandonment.

At night having dreams

After that hearing no one scream

Recalling a meeting with the actual father during finals week, feeling a sense of completeness that was short-lived due to abandonment.

When I first met my actual pops and we took pic and it seemed

It was complete but then he left me again and I was in finals week

Expressing the desire for father-son time, the disappointment when it didn't happen, and the impact on self-esteem.

And when it never happened I cried

God why

Copying everything you do to a t man I had no pride

Recalling shared moments and experiences, expressing the speaker's former world revolving around the absent father.

You were my world and I don't know if you know but I had shut down because I wasn't on Yours too I wasn't yours too

Expressing a sense of impending emotional collapse and questioning the presence of a higher power.

Lord where are you

Lord where are you

I'm about to fall

Continuation of the plea for guidance and support during a challenging emotional state.

Lord where are you

I'm about to fall

Lord where are you

Repetition of the plea for divine intervention and a sense of feeling lost.

I'm about to fall

Lord where are you

Lord where are you

Continued expression of vulnerability and a search for a higher power in times of distress.

Lord where are you

Lord where are you

I'm about to fall

Reiteration of the plea for divine presence and guidance in the face of impending emotional turmoil.

Lord where are you

I'm about to fall

Lord where are you

Lord where are you