if i called u up now
Whispers of Longing: Caleb Sanders' Melody of Regret and Redemption
Lyrics
It's real
Expressing authenticity and genuineness.
Physical now
Referring to a tangible, concrete aspect of the relationship.
Been so hard to wrap my mind around
Struggling to understand or accept a challenging situation.
That daytime
Daytime revealing things that were hidden at night.
Can allow
Acknowledging the allowance of certain experiences during the day.
For the things only night knew about
Reflecting on intimate or personal thoughts only present in dreams.
In my dreams was the only way how
Emphasizing dreams as the primary mode of connection.
Now you're havin' your own on a couch
The person is now involved with someone else.
I can't stop writing
Compelled to express feelings through writing.
Will you please let me play you a song?
Seeking permission to share a musical expression of emotions.
My hand is hurting
Physical pain from expressing emotions through writing.
Nobody's listening
Feeling unheard or ignored.
Will you sing along?
Asking for participation and connection through singing.
And I know that it's so cliché
Aware of the cliché nature of the situation.
But I'm turning my blood into ink
Transforming personal experiences into written words.
And I really wanna know what you think
Seeking the listener's perspective on the expressed emotions.
Don't ask
Discouraging questions or disclosures.
And don't tell
Emphasizing a changed self but a familiar recognition from others.
I'm not the same but you still know me well
Assertion of having heightened perception.
I got eyes
Sharp observation skills.
Like a hawk
Symbolic self-mutilation to avoid negative comments.
Cut my ears so I can't hear them talk
Fear of hearing negative opinions.
Did you finally leave the door unlocked
Questioning if the person left the door open for a return.
or are you anticipating my knock?
Anticipating a possible reunion.
I bet you're lonely
Believing the person is experiencing loneliness.
And I'm startin' to feel lonely too
Sharing a sense of loneliness.
Are you thinking of me
Wondering if the person thinks about the speaker.
When you're finding it hard to get through?
Considering the difficulty the person is facing.
And I gave you words to remember
Giving memorable words to the person.
But sometimes I wanna take them back
Contemplating taking back words due to the person's truthfulness.
Cuz the truth has always been what you lack
Noting a history of lacking honesty.
If I called you up now
Contemplating reconnecting through a phone call.
Would you wanna be my friend again?
Expressing a desire to rebuild a friendship.
If I say sorry
Considering an apology as a means of reconciliation.
Do you think that we could make amends?
Hoping for a positive outcome and resolution.
You know I love you
Affirming love, possibly in an obsessive way.
Call it limerence if you must
Referring to intense infatuation or obsession.
Please pick up and renew
Requesting a response and renewal of the connection.
Premeditated belated lust
Describing a planned and delayed passionate desire.
And I know that it's so fucked up
Acknowledging the messed-up nature of the situation.
But there's nothing that I can do now
Expressing helplessness about the current state of affairs.
And if there was I wouldn't wanna know how
Resignation to ignorance if there were a solution.
(I promise I won't let you down)
Promise not to disappoint, expressing sincerity.
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