Lyrics
When I’m bored
Expressing a tendency to turn to certain behaviors when feeling bored.
I get drunk and I smoke cigarettes
Describing the use of alcohol and cigarettes as coping mechanisms during boredom.
Pretend my life’s worse than it is
Admitting to exaggerating life's difficulties in one's mind during moments of boredom.
And feel sorry for myself
Indulging in self-pity as a result of the perceived challenges in life.
When I’m bored
Repeating the theme of boredom and the actions taken to alleviate it.
I text anyone who will text me back
Revealing a desire for attention, reaching out to others via text.
Cause I want attention want it bad
Expressing a strong need for attention, implying a deeper emotional need.
But it’s not enough to help
Acknowledging that external attention doesn't fully satisfy inner struggles.
I guess there’s something wrong with me
Recognizing a personal issue or flaw that affects interactions with others.
Think everybody sees it too
Suggesting a perception that others can see the mentioned issue or flaw.
Cause I’m the biggest hypocrite I’ve ever met
Admitting to being a hypocrite, possibly implying contradictions in behavior.
Yeah I’m a little sick of waking up like this
Expressing frustration with the repetitive and negative morning routine.
It’s hard to be alone
Highlighting the difficulty of being alone due to self-dislike.
When I don’t really like me
Continuing to express a lack of self-esteem and self-acceptance.
I keep talking to myself
Describing a tendency to engage in internal dialogue, but in a harsh manner.
But not very nicely
Acknowledging the negative nature of self-talk.
Oh I’m scared of where I‘ll go
Expressing fear of the consequences if one doesn't speak or act correctly.
If I don’t say the right things
Indicating a struggle with finding the right words or actions in social situations.
Cause I keep talking to myself
Reiterating the tendency to engage in negative self-talk internally.
But not very nicely
Emphasizing the lack of kindness in one's internal dialogue.
Now I’m here
Transitioning to a different setting, still using alcohol as a coping mechanism.
And I’m just drinking more alcohol
Continuing to rely on alcohol to cope with life's challenges.
Only way I can deal with it all
Explaining that alcohol serves as a way to manage overwhelming emotions.
Cause I can’t do face to face
Expressing a difficulty with face-to-face interactions and preferring indirect coping.
You would think
Contrasting the expectation of opening up with the preference for pushing others away.
That I’d open up to someone who
Highlighting a reluctance to open up to those who genuinely care.
Wants to love me but I’d rather choose
Choosing isolation over accepting love and support from others.
To push them far away
Preferring to distance oneself from others, possibly due to fear of vulnerability.
Cause I don’t know if I’ll change
Expressing uncertainty about the possibility of personal change.
There’s something wrong with me
Reiterating the belief in a personal flaw visible to others.
Think everybody sees it too
Continuing to express the perception that others recognize the mentioned flaw.
Cause I’m the biggest hypocrite I’ve ever met
Repeating the acknowledgment of being a hypocrite, emphasizing internal conflict.
Yeah I’m a little sick of waking up like this
Expressing weariness and dissatisfaction with the current state of waking up.
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