at dawn
Embracing Myself at Dawn: A Journey of Self-Discovery in Love
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I've never been too lucky with romance
I have not been fortunate in love.
I always liked the boys who wouldn't dance
I was attracted to boys who avoided dancing with me.
With me, underneath the moonlight
Particularly beneath the moonlight.
And I thought
I had a realization.
That maybe I was the problem
I considered myself the issue.
I was never good enough for them
I felt inadequate for them.
Something just must be wrong with me
I thought something was inherently wrong with me.
But then, one day at dawn
Then, one day at dawn.
Saying goodbye after an all-night talk
Parting after a night-long conversation.
We hugged each other close
We embraced closely.
And stood still in front of the door
Standing in front of the door.
Before then, we were friends
Prior to this, we were friends.
And now we don't know how this might end
Now unsure of the potential outcome.
But thank you for liking me as I am
Expressing gratitude for accepting me as I am.
As I am
Acknowledging self-acceptance.
For liking me as I am
Reiterating appreciation for acceptance.
We've known each other for a fair few years
We have a history spanning several years.
But I was way too blind and wasting tears
I was oblivious, shedding tears for someone unworthy.
On a guy who only made me feel like a fool
Prioritizing someone who made me feel foolish.
And now we're running out of time
Time is running out for us to be together.
To try and be together you and I
As we face the prospect of being distant.
Cos we'll be moving far apart
We are moving apart.
So I just wanted to say that
A declaration before separation.
That day at dawn
That dawn brought a positive change within me.
I finally felt like myself once more
I regained a sense of self.
That girl I thought was gone
A part of me I thought was lost reappeared.
Popped her head around the door
A metaphorical return of my true self.
Before then, I'd forgotten my purpose
I had forgotten my purpose.
Destroyed my own defences
I had dismantled my defenses.
So thank you for reminding me who I am
Expressing gratitude for the reminder of identity.
Who I am
Reaffirming self-awareness.
Who I am
Emphasizing self-identity.
I found myself lost
I felt lost within myself.
Too many days behind closed doors
Days spent secluded behind closed doors.
I couldn't fly home
Unable to return home for my grandparents' funerals.
To go to my grandparents' funerals
Avoidance of familial responsibilities.
Last year of uni was meant to be the best
The supposed best year at university turned out challenging.
But it wasn't, no
Contrasting expectations with reality.
And all that whilst feeling scared to start my life
Fearing the commencement of my adult life.
And think I'm not enough
Doubting my adequacy.
But, one day at dawn
Then, one day at dawn.
Saying goodbye after an all-night talk
Parting words after a night-long conversation.
We hugged each other close
Embracing each other before the farewell.
And stood still in front of the door
Standing in contemplation at the door.
Before then, we were friends
Prior to this, we were friends.
And now we don't know how this might end
The uncertainty of the future between us.
But thank you for everything once again
Gratitude expressed for everything once again.
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