Eighteen
Journey Through Mist: Reflections on Life's Choices
Lyrics
Old ways rack up a debt
Refers to accumulating consequences from traditional or outdated behaviors.
Like welcomes I have overspent
Describes excessive hospitality that has resulted in negative consequences.
And all the things I could have been
Reflects on missed opportunities and unfulfilled potential.
Now just days I've overslept
Expresses regret for wasting time, possibly due to oversleeping.
Still got my car and too much time
Highlights possession of a car and excess free time, but both face obstacles.
But they both stall at every light
Describes setbacks in the journey, facing challenges at every stoplight.
And I can't afford to watch her die
Expresses financial constraints preventing the ability to address car issues.
But she's getting old, well so am I
Acknowledges aging, both in the context of the car and the speaker.
With the menthols
Depicts a self-destructive cycle involving menthols, alcohol, and indifference to consequences.
And alcohol
-Drop every ball
-While close calls
-Get closer
-But when it's over
-I won't care at all
-Search the roads for signs of life
Expresses a search for meaning or vitality in life but finding emptiness.
But no one's out this time of night
Describes solitude during the night with a lack of signs of life.
So I scan the fog, try to read the signs
Attempts to find meaning in the foggy uncertainty of life.
Somewhere welcomes me tonight
Finds solace or acceptance in an unspecified place or state.
It wishes me well as I leave
Personifies a place wishing the speaker well as they depart.
It's all just ground under my feet
Highlights the mundane nature of life, with everything just ground underfoot.
'Cause I'm choking on the memories
Struggles with the weight of past memories and severed connections.
Of burning bridges I had to leave
Expresses the emotional toll of leaving behind bridges that were burned.
But once all the smoke clears
Envisions a future where the consequences of actions become clear.
And all that's left are empty beers
Describes a aftermath of empty beer bottles and broken mirrors.
And shattered mirrors
Reflects on the wreckage of past achievements and shattered self-image.
And laureled peers
References recognition or honors that are now in the past.
Long past these puerile years
Acknowledges the speaker's transition from immature years to adulthood.
They're all grown up
Observes the growth of others while the speaker feels stuck.
While I'm still stuck
Expresses frustration with clichéd wishes for success.
With "best of lucks"
Conveys a sense of being trapped or stagnant.
Who gives a fuck?
Challenges the significance of well-wishing, questioning its relevance.
It's what I chose
States a defiance or indifference toward societal expectations and wishes.
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