gas station song
Lost in Heartache: Caroline Ward's Gas Station Confession
Lyrics
I'm not in love anymore
I no longer feel love.
But I think that I used to be
But I believe I used to feel love in the past.
I wish that I was
I wish I still experienced love.
When im bored
When I'm bored, I long for the past love.
But I know there's no way that I could be
Realizing it's impossible to regain that past love.
I cried in the gas station line
I cried while waiting in line at the gas station.
Yeah, the guy probably thought I was crazy
Others may perceive my emotions negatively.
If I wasn't alive yeah, you'd probably still find ways to hate me
If I were not alive, there would still be negativity directed at me.
I wish that I was on the moon
Expressing a desire to be distant or detached.
At least I think I'm over it for you
Perhaps I have moved on from the past love.
I can't let go of anything like I used to
Struggling to let go of things as easily as before.
Darling I'm hurt too
Acknowledging emotional pain.
I know I'm a bit of a flight risk
Aware of being a potential risk in relationships.
I thought you would risk it
Expecting someone to take the risk.
I always believed what you said and
Believing in and being affected by someone's words.
You knew that it would kill me
Knowing that certain words can be destructive.
The heater is on in my car but I'm
Using the car heater but letting in the cold air.
Rolling down the windows
Contrasting temperature outside and personal appearance.
Its 20 degrees but I think I look
Thinking I look better when enduring difficulties.
Better when I'm freezing
Perceiving a preference for challenges.
The air isn't clean inside my lungs
Sensing pollution in one's own life.
I think I'm drowning
Feeling overwhelmed and suffocated.
Abusing your power
Noticing an abuse of influence.
Careful I keep track and I'm still counting
Keeping track of negative actions and still counting.
I've always felt misunderstood
Consistently feeling misunderstood.
Stop acting like you get me
Rejecting the idea that someone truly understands.
Conditioned to think
Being conditioned to expect negative perceptions.
That what I say comes off as crazy
Feeling judged as crazy when expressing oneself.
Forced into silence
Forced into silence and quietness.
Quiet
Reflecting on silence and its impact.
I thought you might kill me
Suspecting potential harm from someone close.
I'm crying in vain cause either way you never listen
Crying without being heard, feeling unheard.
They say absence always
Referencing the saying that absence intensifies feelings.
Makes the heart grow fonder
Despite time passing, still harboring strong negative emotions.
24 Months and I still hate you
Expressing enduring dislike over an extended period.
More than often
Frequently feeling negativity.
I hangout online to see what
Monitoring online opinions about oneself.
They all say about me
Disliking friends but valuing their opinions.
I hate all my friends
Contrasting feelings towards friends.
But care about all their opinions
Mother's perspective on future insignificance.
My mother says
Considering the possibility of mother's insight.
That one day
Doubting or questioning mother's state of mind.
This will all be nothing
Pondering the transitory nature of life's challenges.
Think maybe she's right
Contemplating the accuracy of mother's prediction.
Or maybe she is just on something
Speculating on mother's mental state.
I keep getting older how does anyone survive this?
Reflecting on the challenges of aging.
I keep getting older how does anyone survive this?
Repeating the reflection on the inevitability of aging.
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