Why Do I
Unanswered Melodies: Decoding the Emotional Symphony of 'Why Do I' by Carolyn Miller
Lyrics
You always mean exactly what you say
You consistently speak truthfully
Yea you say I was the best choice you ever made
Your affirmation that I'm your best decision
Always an optimist, playin my therapist
You're always positive, acting as my counselor
Showin up every time
You're reliably present
You really think it’s all gonna be alright
You believe everything will turn out fine
So why do I cry to every line
Questioning why I cry when a specific song plays
When “still the one” comes on
Expressing confusion over emotional response to a particular song ("still the one")
Why am I drivin in silence
Wondering why I'm silent during a drive, contrasting with the past when I sang along
When I used to sing along
Remembering a time when I used to sing happily
I wish lovin you came so easy
Desiring that loving you was effortless
I hate that I have to try
Disliking the effort required to love you
Cuz you don’t
Stating that you don't seem to make the same effort
So why do I
Continuing to question why I feel this way despite your actions
You bring the same wine to my parent’s house
Observing repetition in your behavior when visiting my parents
You know exactly what they want to talk about
Noting your awareness of topics my parents prefer
Never pretentious, your laugh is infectious
Praising your genuine nature and contagious laughter
My brother thinks you are the best
Stating my brother's positive opinion of you
So why do I cry to every line
Repeatedly questioning emotional reactions to the same song
When “still the one” comes on
Referencing the emotional response to "still the one" song
Why am I drivin in silence
Noting the change in behavior from singing along to driving in silence
When I used to sing along
Contrasting current behavior with past joyous singing
I wish lovin you came so easy
Expressing desire for effortless love
I hate that I have to try
Expressing dislike for having to put in effort
Cuz you don’t
Observing the lack of similar effort from you
So why do I
Continuing to question the feelings despite your actions
Hold my breath when you say you love me
Holding emotions when hearing "I love you"
And why am I holding on
Wondering why I'm holding onto something causing pain
When it’s only hurting
Recognizing that holding on is causing hurt
So why do I cry to every line
Reiterating emotional reactions to the same song
When “still the one” comes on
Reiterating the emotional response to "still the one" song
Why am I drivin in silence
Reiterating the change from singing to silence while driving
When I used to sing along
Reiterating the contrast between past and present behavior
I wish lovin you came so easy
Desiring effortless love again
I hate that I have to try
Disliking the effort needed in the relationship
Cuz you don’t
Observing the lack of reciprocal effort from you
So why do I
Continuing to question emotions despite your actions
So why do I
Reiterating the persistent questioning
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