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I'd watch the furniture dance slowly, as you dragged it around the room
I observed the furniture moving slowly as you rearranged it in the room.
Unaware of my attention, you were alone for all you knew
Unaware of my presence, you believed you were alone.
But in the moments when the analgesia would briefly fade
During moments when pain relief lessened, I could understand the unspoken words your body conveyed; you were consistently fearful.
I could collocate the words your body spoke; you were always so afraid
Despite analgesia, your fear was evident through your body language.
Your hands would shake as you rearranged flowers by the bed
Your hands trembled as you arranged flowers beside the bed.
I heard visitors pass comments, I looked well, or so they said
I overheard comments from visitors about my well-being, or so they claimed.
And every morning, as the sunlight slowly filtered through the shades
Every morning, sunlight filtered through the shades, revealing your disappointment as I slept through the day.
You'd awake, disappointed by me sleeping through the day
You were disappointed when I failed to wake up and engage with the day.
And it pains me knowing that you were taking time out of your life
It pains me to know that you sacrificed your time to ensure I remained on medication, keeping me anchored when I wanted to escape.
To make sure that I was still on the medication that made me stay when I didn't want to
You dedicated time to make sure I stayed on necessary medication.
And you always say you're not, but I know you're disappointed
Despite your denial, I sense your disappointment when the doctor informs you that I've stopped communicating.
When you visit and the doctor tells you that I've stopped talking again
Your disappointment is evident when the doctor reveals my silence during your visits.
It's just when I had no one, I had depression
When I had no one, I had depression as my only constant companion.
It's the only constant in my life that I could depend on
Depression was the unwavering element in my life, the only reliable constant.
Your hands would shake as you rearranged flowers by the bed
Your hands continued to shake as you arranged flowers by the bed.
I heard visitors pass comments, I looked well, or so they said
Visitors commented on my appearance, asserting that I looked well.
And every morning, as the sunlight slowly filtered through the shades
Each morning, as sunlight entered through the shades, your disappointment surfaced as I remained asleep.
You'd awake, disappointed by me sleeping through the day
You were disappointed to find me still asleep during the day.
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