Small Town Hypocrite
Small Town Hypocrite: Love, Loss, and the High Cost of Fitting In
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Hand me down dreams got me high in the rafters
Feeling elevated with inherited aspirations and ambitions.
Homecoming queen couldn't be an outsider
Unable to break societal norms despite aspirations.
So there I'd sit, with a cigarette lit in a leather jacket
Expressing rebellion with a cigarette in a non-conformist image.
I found a boy who was a stranger too
Finding a connection with someone different in a small town.
In a one horse town at a table for two
Sharing a moment with a stranger in a limited environment.
We had matching scars, matching tattoos
Symbolizing shared experiences and choices through scars and tattoos.
Both dying to fit in
Both individuals yearning to be accepted by the community.
Ain't that some shit
Reflecting on the irony of the situation.
We're just small town hypocrites
Acknowledging the dual nature of conforming to and resisting small-town expectations.
And that scholarship was a ship that sailed
Letting go of educational opportunities for love.
When I chose you and daddy gave me hell
Facing disapproval from family for choosing a relationship.
I made myself into someone else just to love you, damn, I loved you
Transforming oneself for love, despite the challenges.
Took all my plans and I put 'em in a box
Sacrificing personal plans for the sake of the relationship.
Phantom pains for the wings I lost
Feeling the lingering effects of sacrificed dreams.
Had me circling rings in the catalogs
Engaging in futile pursuits while missing the obvious.
For seven years and you never got the hint
Not realizing the partner's lack of understanding for seven years.
Ain't that some shit
Reflecting on the irony of the situation.
I'm just a small town hypocrite
Continuing to be a hypocrite in a small town setting.
Swore we'd be running, running, running this town
Promising a shared future of success in the town.
But you're just running, running, running around
Realizing the partner's uncommitted actions.
And I'm staring at a picket fence
Contemplating a traditional and stable life.
Wondering where the hell time went
Questioning where time went while stuck in unfulfilled dreams.
I should've been running, running, running by now
Regretting not pursuing personal ambitions.
But I just hang around, ooh
Remaining stagnant despite the desire for change.
Love shot me out like a rocket
Recalling a passionate but short-lived love.
Never to return and man, I forgot it
Forgetting the intensity of love and its consequences.
How it feels to fall from orbit and land on shifting sands
Experiencing a drastic fall from emotional highs to instability.
I found my heart at the bottom of a bookcase
Discovering one's emotions in an unexpected place.
Said you needed space and dammit I bought it
Accepting the need for space in the relationship.
'Til you moved in a vinyl sided double wide with a couple of her kids
Facing the reality of a partner moving on.
Ain't that some shit
Reflecting on the irony of the situation.
You're just a small town hypocrite
Labeling the partner as a hypocrite in a small town.
Oh-oh-oh, Swore we'd be running, running, running this town
Reiterating the unfulfilled promise of running the town together.
But you're still running, running, running around
Observing the partner's continued lack of commitment.
And I'm staring at a picket fence
Contemplating a conventional and stable life.
Wondering where the hell time went
Questioning the passage of time and unmet aspirations.
I should've been running, running, running by now
Expressing regret for not pursuing personal goals.
But I just hang around
Remaining stuck despite the desire for change.
Oh, now I bitch about how things turned and how they should've been
Complaining about the disparity between reality and expectations.
The bridges that I burned and the trains I didn't catch
Reflecting on personal mistakes and missed opportunities.
Like a small town hypocrite
Acknowledging one's hypocrisy in a small town setting.
Just a small town hypocrite
Reiterating the self-awareness of being a small town hypocrite.
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