Lyrics
Oh how am I supposed to heal
Expressing the difficulty of healing from emotional pain.
I can't erase the damage you've done
Acknowledging the lasting impact of the damage caused.
And who knows how many times you've done this
Suggesting a pattern of hurtful actions with uncertainty about the frequency.
And I'd never know
The speaker may not be aware of all the wrongs committed.
Yeah you were fucked up yeah intoxicated
Describing the partner as troubled and under the influence.
Overly damn medicated
Highlighting excessive use of medication without justification.
That ain't no justification
Rejecting excuses for harmful behavior.
Went away on a camping vacay
Describing a past event where the partner went on a camping vacation.
Yeah
Acknowledging the partner's departure.
You can call me crazy
Open to being perceived as crazy due to the situation.
You were acting shady
Accusing the partner of suspicious behavior.
Fucking with another lady
Accusing the partner of infidelity with another woman.
All in quarantine you put me at risk
Expressing vulnerability during quarantine and feeling at risk.
You cheated on me
Confirmation of being cheated on.
Oh how am I supposed to heal
Reiterating the challenge of healing from emotional pain.
I can't erase the damage you've done
Repeating the impact of the damage done by the partner.
And who knows how many times you've done this
Repeating uncertainty about the partner's repeated actions.
And I'd never know
Reiteration of not being fully informed about the partner's actions.
It's so confusing what I want
Expressing confusion about personal desires.
'Cause I love you but it's not enough
Feeling love but questioning its sufficiency.
And if I take you back to soon
Reflecting on the dilemma of whether taking the partner back compromises self-worth.
Am I respecting my value
Concerns about compromising personal values by reconciling too quickly.
When I kiss you I get a feeling
Positive feelings when physically close, but tainted by negative images.
But it's ruined by the images
The impact of distressing mental images on positive experiences.
Yeah the screenshots
Mentioning explicit images stored as screenshots.
Her description
Reference to another woman with a negative description.
I read all the text that you sent
Reading and processing the partner's text messages to the other woman.
Pretending I'm not your girlfriend
Pretending not to be the partner's girlfriend during the exchange.
So much for our anniversary
Reflecting on a disrupted anniversary due to the partner's actions.
But you're busy texting her something dirty
Observing the partner's continued inappropriate communication during the relationship.
Oh how am I supposed to heal
Reiterating the difficulty of healing from emotional pain.
I can't erase the damage you've done
Reiterating the lasting impact of the partner's actions.
And who knows how many times you've done this
Reiterating uncertainty about the partner's repeated actions.
And I'd never know
Reiteration of not being fully informed about the partner's actions.
And I know I'm not the only one who stayed
Acknowledging that others may have faced similar challenges in the relationship.
I just don't say a thing 'cause it just hurts too much
Choosing silence to avoid expressing the pain caused by the partner's actions.
Yeah
Reiterating the difficulty of expressing the emotional pain.
And I know that she stayed the night
Acknowledging that the partner spent the night with another person.
I can't block the images in my head
Struggling with intrusive mental images.
It hurts to think of her in your arms and in your bed
The emotional pain of imagining the partner with someone else.
How could you
An expression of betrayal and emotional distress.
Look what you've done to us
Reflecting on the negative impact of the partner's actions on the relationship.
Oh
An exclamation of emotional pain and distress.
Oh
A continuation of the emotional expression from the previous line.
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