my worstest
Unveiling My True Self: Chloe Wong's Reflection on Imperfection
Lyrics
I'm bad at first impressions
I struggle with making a good first impression.
I'm bad at first impressions
Reiterating difficulty with initial interactions.
I'm sorry if I screwed it up
Apologizing for any mistakes made during the introduction.
I really didn't mean to
Expressing genuine lack of intention to cause problems.
I hope you're understanding
Hoping for understanding from the other person.
Don't judge our interaction
Requesting not to judge based on previous encounters.
Based on who I was last night
Asking not to judge based on past behaviors.
It felt right to me in the moment we were in
Reflecting on a past moment that felt right but went wrong due to being unprepared.
Being unprepared, I had to go ruin it
Admitting to ruining the moment due to lack of preparation.
Can we live in today and forget what I did
Seeking to move forward and forget past mistakes.
I get so boring when I see you
Feeling uninteresting in the presence of the other person.
You think we're platonic can't you see through
Addressing a misconception that the relationship is purely platonic.
What I present isn't who I am
Highlighting a disparity between presented and true self.
How can I convince you that I'm different
Expressing a desire to be recognized as different from the presented image.
I'm not trying to fish for compliments
Clarifying the absence of seeking compliments.
I just want you to know who I really am
Expressing a genuine desire for the other person to know the real self.
I just wish that you'd understand
Expressing a wish for understanding from the other person.
I wear clothes that I wouldn't
Admitting to wearing clothes that may not be typical for the person.
Your timings so imperfect
Commenting on the imperfect timing of the other person's observations.
You see me at my worstest
Acknowledging being seen at a low point.
I know that's not a word
Playfully acknowledging the use of a non-standard word.
Like I said you make me nervous
Admitting to feeling nervous in the presence of the other person.
And I start speaking gibberish
Describing speaking incoherently due to nervousness.
It felt right to me in the moment we were in
Recalling a moment that felt right despite subsequent problems.
Being unprepared, I had to go ruin it
Reiterating the negative impact of being unprepared in that moment.
Can we live in today and forget what I did
Repeating the desire to move past past mistakes.
I get so boring when I see you
Acknowledging a tendency to become boring in the presence of the other person.
You think we're platonic can't you see through
Challenging the perception of the relationship as purely platonic.
What I present isn't who I am
Reiterating the disparity between presented and true self.
How can I convince you that I'm different
Expressing a desire to convince the other person of being different.
I'm not trying to for compliments
Clarifying the absence of seeking compliments.
I just want you to know who I really am
Reiterating the desire for the other person to know the real self.
I just wish that you'd understand
Expressing a wish for understanding from the other person.
If you gave me a chance
Pleading for a chance to redeem past actions.
To redeem
Expressing a desire for redemption.
How I've been acting
Acknowledging past negative behaviors.
Then maybe you'd see
Suggesting that understanding would reveal similarities between them.
That we're not so different
Asserting commonality despite outward appearances.
As I make it seem
Admitting to addictive tendencies in pursuit of a specific feeling.
But I'm just an addict
Describing a longing for authenticity in the relationship.
Chasing the feeling of what we could be
Expressing a willingness to make significant efforts to change perception.
I want to be myself when I'm with you
Reiterating the disparity between presented and true self.
I'd bend over backwards to change your view
Expressing a strong desire to be genuine when with the other person.
What I present isn't who I am
Repeating the desire for the other person to understand the true self.
I just wish that you'd understand
Reiterating the wish for understanding from the other person.
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