Early Mornings
Navigating Desolation: Christopher Hurst's Reflection on Struggle and Isolation
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As days go by this shit is draining
Expressing the draining nature of passing days.
I take a look outside, it's raining
Observing rainy weather when looking outside.
Said it's dark and i can't see nothing
Describing darkness and an inability to see clearly.
So I drink a little more so I can feel something
Using alcohol to cope and seek emotional sensation.
It's like I stand in my own way
Feeling hindered by one's own actions or mindset.
Standing still and I slowly decay
Being stagnant and slowly deteriorating.
I'm stuck frozen
Feeling immobilized and stuck.
Unable to move like something is broken
Comparing the inability to move to something broken.
I think I lack it, like whatever the fuck it is
Expressing a sense of lacking something important.
Yeah, you know, like whatever the fuck it gives
Reflecting on the elusive nature of that missing element.
I can't say what I'm feeling like
Unable to articulate emotions but acknowledging internal discord.
Just know that something isn't right
Suggesting an awareness of personal unease without clear expression.
Asking myself, does anybody really give a damn
Questioning if anyone genuinely cares about the emotional state.
When they take the time to ask how I am?
Reflecting on the superficiality of inquiries about well-being.
So I sit alone, ain't nothing new
Choosing solitude as a familiar and constant state.
I hide it, they can't even tell that I'm blue
Masking inner feelings, preventing others from perceiving sadness.
The sadness that's in my brain
Describing the intensity of sadness affecting the mind.
It's got me going insane
Experiencing a profound impact leading to a sense of insanity.
No longer hitting the same
Not finding solace in familiar coping mechanisms.
It feels like I'm stuck…stuck out in the rain
Feeling trapped and overwhelmed by emotional turmoil.
I sit alone looking at myself in the mirror
Contemplating oneself in solitude, seeking self-awareness.
Hoping one day the vision becomes clearer
Hoping for clarity and a clearer understanding of the future.
Like what's my next move, my next course of action
Considering future actions but succumbing to distractions.
Too easy, I'm falling victim to distraction
Acknowledging vulnerability to distractions in decision-making.
It's like I take one step forward and two steps back
Expressing the difficulty of making progress, facing setbacks.
Like do I got it? Or is there something I lack?
Questioning personal abilities and self-doubt.
They call it the it factor
Referring to the elusive quality often associated with success.
But I'm lost like I'm playing the role of an actor
Feeling lost and disconnected, comparing life to acting.
In a movie, and it's not even about me
Feeling like a bystander in a narrative not centered on oneself.
Damn, how crazy would that be?
Contemplating the surreal nature of life's unpredictability.
I'm unpaid and my story is delayed
Expressing a sense of being undervalued and overlooked.
Got these crooked thoughts, they invade
Battling intrusive and negative thoughts affecting mood.
From my vision, instilled by the big man
Attributing internal struggles to external influences.
I get depressed just wondering if I still can
Experiencing depression and questioning personal capabilities.
So I gotta get it, I can't be the ugly child
Expressing determination to succeed despite perceived shortcomings.
Shit, my vision is reconciled
Finding resolution and clarity in personal vision and purpose.
The sadness that's in my brain
Reiterating the intensity of the emotional struggles within.
It's got me going insane
Feeling overwhelmed and losing touch with familiar emotions.
No longer hitting the same
Reflecting on the changing impact of coping mechanisms.
It feels like I'm stuck… stuck out in the rain
Sensations of being trapped and overwhelmed by emotional turmoil.
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