Lyrics
I can't tell if I am fine
Uncertainty about emotional state - unsure if feeling fine or afraid
Or if I'm just a bit afraid
Questioning recognition of one's own appearance
When I don't recognize
Doubt regarding self-identity and facial appearance
The look of my own face
Continued struggle to hold onto past losses
Oh, I, I, I, I, won't let go of what I've lost
Inability to refuse or let go of past losses
I, I, I, I can't say no to this-
Continued struggle or inability to reject something
I, oh, I have lost my mind, my mind
Feeling of losing one's sanity
I count the times, the times
Repetitive counting of instances of self-reference
That I say I, my, me, mine
Repeated self-focused language
I, I am not myself, myself
Feeling disconnected from one's usual self
And I can't tell who I am anymore
Unable to recognize personal identity anymore
Anymore, anymore
Emphasis on the loss of recognition of self
Nine, so one more time
Symbolic reference to repetitive actions (numbers)
Put on the mask
Metaphorically wearing a mask to conceal emotions
To five, it will be alright
Belief that maintaining the façade will be comforting
Never take it off is all I ask
Request to continue hiding true feelings
Oh, I, I, I, I, won't let go of what I've lost
Continued struggle to let go of past losses
I, I, I, I can't say no to this
Difficulty in refusing something despite the desire
I, oh I have lost my mind, my mind
Feeling of losing sanity
I count the times, the times
Repetitive counting of instances of self-reference
That I say I, my, me, mine
Continued self-centered language
I, I am not myself, myself
Feeling disconnected from one's usual self
And I can't tell who I am anymore
Unable to recognize personal identity anymore
Anymore, anymore
Emphasizing loss of recognition of self
I've filed the missing personality report
Formally acknowledging a missing part of oneself
Maybe now I can figure out just what I'm looking for
Hoping to understand what's missing
I've tried it all, you know
Attempted various approaches to success or achievement
Every preset mold on my way to gold
Experienced emotional distress in pursuit of success
I've cried in every low
Emotional pain experienced in low moments
Under every name other than my own
Feeling of disconnect under different identities
I, oh I have lost my mind, my mind
Feeling of losing sanity
I count the times, the times
Repetitive counting of instances of self-reference
That I say I, my, me, mine
Continued self-centered language
I, I am not myself, myself
Feeling disconnected from one's usual self
And I can't tell who I am anymore
Unable to recognize personal identity anymore
Anymore, anymore
Emphasizing loss of recognition of self
Anymore, woah
Reiteration of the uncertainty about self-identity
I can't tell who I am anymore
Continued confusion about recognizing oneself
Anymore, any-
Continued emphasis on the uncertainty of self-identity
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