Tired.
Heartache Lullaby: A Soul's Struggle in Love
Lyrics
I’m tired of writing love songs in my bed
I feel fatigued from composing love songs while lying in bed.
Whenever I can’t get you out of my head
These songs emerge when I can't erase thoughts of you from my mind.
I’m exhausted, I just need some sleep
I'm worn out; I crave rest and sleep.
But when I think of you I start to weep
Thinking of you makes me cry despite my need for sleep.
The mental frustration, the desperation
Experiencing mental frustration and desperation.
I can never find a balance, I need some clarification
Struggling to find balance, seeking clarification.
I need some confirmation cause I’m dedicated
Desiring confirmation, dedicated to rising above challenges.
To rise above all of the congregation
Committed to surpassing the congregation.
I’m losing my head, losing my head
Feeling overwhelmed, losing control.
All of these thoughts make me regret
Regretting thoughts that led to these emotions.
Ever thinking that I could be yours
Regretting the belief that I could be yours.
When I think that I’m nothing more than a
Seeing myself as nothing more than a joke without a punchline.
Joke who lost his punchline
Contemplating returning to a conventional path.
Maybe I should just get back in line
Recognizing your worth and feeling undeserving.
Cause I know that you deserve more
Acknowledging you deserve more in my heart.
In my heart, that’s a thought that can’t be ignored
Cannot ignore the thought that you deserve better.
I’m tired of writing love songs in my bed
Reiterating the weariness of composing love songs in bed.
Whenever I can’t get you out of my head
Recurring difficulty in removing you from my thoughts.
I’m exhausted, I just need some sleep
Seeking sleep due to exhaustion.
But when I think of you I start to weep
Yet thoughts of you make me cry instead.
This is what happens when I go to sleep
Describing the consequence of falling asleep.
I start having dreams about you and me
Dreaming about a future with you.
I start dreaming about a house on the lake
Envisioning a life together with a house on the lake.
With three kids, maybe five then I cry myself awake because
Imagining family, but waking up in tears as it's not real.
I know that it isn’t reality
Acknowledging the disparity between dreams and reality.
I know that it’s just an empty part of me
Realizing it's an unfulfilled part of me.
Wishing and hoping that you can see
Wishing and hoping you can understand my broken heart.
That my heart is broken, I can’t believe that
Expressing disbelief at succumbing to immature thoughts.
I succumbed to my childish thoughts
Should have abandoned those thoughts when you mentioned our issues.
I should’ve left them when you told me that we’re falling apart
Regretting not leaving when problems surfaced.
I should’ve left them when you told me that right from the start
Reflecting on not acting upon early warnings.
But I was afraid of holding my own shattered heart
Fearful of facing the reality of my shattered heart.
I was afraid of living life with all the ripped up art
Fearful of navigating life with broken pieces of art.
But why would I be afraid if I had a part in
Questioning fear if I played a part in destruction.
Destroying the life that was perfect for me
Contemplating the destruction of a perfect life.
Took all my sanity, all my energy, all the goodness in me
Acknowledging the loss of sanity, energy, and goodness.
I’m tired of writing love songs in my bed
Reiterating the fatigue from composing love songs.
Whenever I can’t get you out of my head
The persistent struggle to remove you from my thoughts.
I’m exhausted, I just need some sleep
Seeking rest due to emotional exhaustion.
But when I think of you I start to weep
Yet, thoughts of you bring tears when I should sleep.
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