Lyrics
From the outside looking in
Feeling isolated and observing from an external perspective
Constant failure was the only friend I had
Constant failure as a consistent companion
Taking everything for granted
Taking things for granted without appreciation
This pity party in my head
An internal struggle and self-pity
Without You I'm as good as dead
Expressing dependence on someone or something for survival
Always playing victim
Adopting a victim mentality
Always feeling sorry for myself
Consistently feeling sorry for oneself
And blaming everyone else
Blaming others for personal problems
I teeter on this soapbox, the tilt before the fall
Standing on a metaphorical platform, anticipating a downfall
My precipice of selfishness, I keep hitting a wall
Acknowledging a pattern of selfish behavior leading to obstacles
Always falling off this beaten path, I'm tired of fading away
Frequent deviation from the expected path, a desire to be remembered
Trying to shed this weight, on my own
Attempting to overcome burdens alone, without success
And it isn't working out, I'm tired of fading away
Struggling to escape a fading existence
From the grace You set in place
Reflecting on a lost connection with divine grace
On my own, sometimes I'm up
Experiencing fluctuations in mood and circumstances
Sometimes I'm down
Internal conflict, seeking assistance in overcoming doubts
Help me not hate myself for having my doubts
Battling self-hatred for doubting and questioning
Sinking in the guilt I'm still running from
Being haunted by guilt and avoiding facing it
Lost in the lies I haven't repented of
Trapped in unrepentant lies and their consequences
Memories like bullets, fired from a gun
Past memories causing emotional wounds
Cracking me open
Vulnerability and emotional pain being exposed
Nobody knows the trouble I've been
Expressing the internal struggles not visible to others
Nobody knows the trouble I've been, but You
Seeking understanding and acknowledgment from a specific entity
This selfish masquerade that I have been putting You through
Acknowledging a facade of selfishness displayed to this entity
Nobody knows the trouble I've been, but You
Reiterating the isolation and seeking understanding from the entity
Nobody knows, no one but You
Emphasizing that only the entity truly knows the struggles
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