Fallen
Yearning Echoes: Unseen Emotions in Curran Amster's 'Fallen'
Lyrics
Something no one can ever be
Expressing something unattainable by anyone.
But I still want you here is that so wrong of me
Desiring the presence of someone despite challenges.
Leave your expectations and we can be
Suggesting leaving behind societal expectations for a genuine connection.
All the time I spend waiting for them to see
Waiting for recognition while feeling vulnerable.
I'm down to bare bones nothing left of me
Feeling emotionally stripped and exposed.
You say I am close to you
Noticing proximity but emotional distance.
Well why aren't you near me
Questioning the absence despite claimed closeness.
Is this what it's supposed to be
Doubting if the current situation is the expected outcome.
Because I don't even feel seen
Expressing a lack of recognition or visibility.
Empty words and painful glances pull me to the edge of my answers
Feeling pulled towards despair by insincere words and painful looks.
You say that we are carefree
Contradicting the claim of carefree existence with the feeling of being unseen.
But you don't see me
Noticing the absence of genuine acknowledgment.
All of your eyes and I look into mine
Reflecting on others' perspectives through their eyes.
And I fight back my need to tell you
Struggling with the desire to express feelings.
It's all part of your time I'm wasting all of mine on you and me
Feeling time is wasted on a relationship that may not be reciprocated.
Just wait and see if I have it my way you will have nothing left of me
Expressing a desire for independence if not reciprocated.
Can I recall hopeless times that I have waited by my phone before you call me
Recalling times of hopeless waiting for communication.
Can you just stop me
Questioning the need for restraint.
Thinking about the countless nights I slept in peace without a thought in my mind
Reflecting on peaceful times before emotional turmoil.
But you still think you are all of mine
Noticing possessiveness despite conflicting emotions.
If I'm so into this then why am I speechless crying
Expressing speechlessness and emotional distress.
Why are you so confused
Questioning the confusion of the other person.
Why is your mind so bruised
Noting the mental turmoil of the other person.
Why are you so upset when I just wanna hear you
Expressing a desire for communication despite emotional upset.
All of the time we spent I thought we had the same page in mind
Reflecting on shared time and realizing different perspectives.
But the next one I was looking at was so uncalled for that's my bad
Acknowledging a mistake in judgment.
All of your eyes and I look into mine I fight back my need to tell you
Repeating the struggle with the desire to express feelings.
And you say it's all my fault but it ain't mine at all
Facing blame while denying responsibility.
I'm not falling and he ain't calling
Denying emotional descent and unfulfilled expectations.
I'll figure out my emotions because he told me to hold his
Committing to understanding and managing emotions.
And I'm not falling and he ain't calling
Repeating the denial of emotional descent and unfulfilled expectations.
Reassure myself because everything hurts like hell today
Seeking self-reassurance amidst emotional pain.
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