Lyrics
I'm not the only twenty-something
I acknowledge that I am not the only person in their twenties.
Romanticizing my depression
I tend to idealize or glamorize my feelings of depression.
Nor alone on the corner smoking cigarettes to feel older
I am not the only one seeking a sense of maturity by smoking cigarettes on the street corner.
Baby queer with a fresh cut
Identifying as a young queer person with a recent haircut.
Looking for a fresh fuck
Searching for a new romantic encounter.
Stumble to the bed, crying to my ex, this is what I said.
Expressing emotional vulnerability to an ex-lover.
Here I am
Presenting oneself in the current situation.
Half broke
Financially struggling or partially broken.
Heartbroken
Experiencing heartbreak.
On the wrong coast
Feeling misplaced or on the wrong side of the country.
Love of my life
Referring to a significant love interest.
I had to flee
Had to leave the relationship or location.
Somehow surprised he hates me
Surprised by the hate received after leaving.
Plenty of time hating myself
Spent a considerable amount of time disliking oneself.
Finally makes sense when it's someone else
Understanding self-hatred better when directed at someone else.
I'm not the only dreamer here
Acknowledging the presence of other dreamers.
Trying hard to disappear
Struggling to disappear or go unnoticed.
Standing ovation for the internet sensation
Giving recognition to someone popular on the internet.
Please say you know me
Desiring acknowledgment and understanding from others.
Suffocate me lonely
Expressing a sense of loneliness and suffocation.
It's a miracle showing face
Considering the appearance as a miraculous event.
Knowing I could have stayed
Regretting the decision to leave when the option to stay was available.
Here I am
Reiterating the current emotional and financial state.
Half broke
Financially struggling or partially broken (repeated).
Heartbroken
Experiencing heartbreak (repeated).
On the wrong coast
Feeling misplaced or on the wrong side of the country (repeated).
I'm okay
Expressing resilience or acceptance of the current situation.
Begging you to stay
Pleading for someone to stay despite difficulties.
But not if who I am makes you say
Expressing a willingness to let go if one's identity causes pain.
I make you cry every day
Acknowledging the impact of personal traits on causing emotional distress.
I'd rather you forget my name
Preferring to be forgotten rather than causing continuous pain.
You know I couldn't stay
Confirming the difficulty of staying in the current situation.
Wouldn't let myself fade away
Determined not to let oneself fade away despite challenges.
Shame is crushing me
Experiencing intense guilt or remorse.
Oh so casually
Experiencing shame in a casual manner.
Here I am
Reiterating the current emotional and financial state (repeated).
Still broke
Financially struggling or partially broken (repeated).
Heartbroken
Experiencing heartbreak (repeated).
Middle finger to the coast
Expressing defiance or rebellion against a particular coast or location.
I'd be okay
Claiming that things would be fine if a certain person showed up.
If you showed your face
Expressing a desire for someone's presence despite challenges.
But the universe has a say
Acknowledging the unpredictable nature of the universe.
No matter where I try to stay
Regardless of efforts to stay in one place, there are external forces preventing it.
I never said I wanted to change
Clarifying that the desire for change was never explicitly stated.
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