Holding On
Chasing Shadows: A Poignant Journey of Unrequited Aspiration
Lyrics
While I stay still, you get what I seek keeping long time
While I remain stationary, you achieve what I desire over an extended period.
So I can see you keep climbing up on every place where I've stayed
I observe you ascending in every location where I have stayed.
Just want to make myself catch up you going away from me
I aim to catch up to you as you move away from me.
Every time you leave, I get left behind
Whenever you depart, I find myself left behind.
I try to hold your hands, though I cannot do anymore
Despite my efforts to grasp your hands, I am limited in what I can do.
Nothing saves me when I get sad that I can't bring myself on the stage you always stand
No remedy consoles me when I feel down and unable to join you on the stage you consistently occupy.
But I keep claiming I can go
Nevertheless, I persist in claiming that I can move forward.
And I keep trying to be higher than you for myself
I persist in attempting to surpass you for my own sake.
We know ours are broken in trying till we die
We acknowledge that our efforts are futile, leading to broken aspirations, persisting until death.
Just for myself
Solely for my benefit.
I can't create anything moving everyone staying under myself
I am incapable of creating anything that moves others while keeping everyone beneath me.
I can't sight where I just want to reach
I cannot see the destination I truly desire to reach.
I can't make just for you
I cannot create solely for you.
Did I feel close when I could reach one of places you stayed for a while
Did I feel a sense of proximity when I reached a place where you once stayed?
Then I felt numb
Subsequently, I felt emotionally numb.
When I saw you I was able to tell you none of things I held
When I encountered you, I was unable to express any of the thoughts I held.
And I keep trying to be higher than you for myself
I persist in striving to surpass you for my own benefit.
We know ours are broken in trying till we die
We acknowledge that our efforts are futile, leading to broken aspirations, persisting until death.
In your hands your things have been coming to light up
In your possession, your belongings are revealed and illuminated.
I'm trying to break what you leave on your way
I attempt to dismantle what you leave in your wake.
I know that I can't overtake you till we die
I recognize that I cannot surpass you until death.
I used some wrong ways to reach your spaces where I may
I employed incorrect methods to access the spaces where you may have been reachable.
Have been able to go with a cleaner way
I could have taken a cleaner path to reach those spaces.
Nothing affecting you was born
Nothing that influences you originated from my actions.
I could never give you a great thing that your eyes saw
I could never provide something significant that your eyes witnessed.
I can't reach
I cannot reach.
Wish I reached there for you
I wish I had reached that point for you.
I can never change myself doing wrong
I am unable to change myself by engaging in wrongful actions.
And I'm trying too far away
Despite my efforts, I find myself moving too far away.
I'm going so broken
I am deteriorating, and I can no longer continue.
I cannot do anymore
I am no longer capable of doing anything.
And I keep trying to be higher than you for me
I persist in striving to surpass you for my own sake.
You keep running your way on a site over me
You continue to run your course above me.
We know ours are broken in trying till we die
We acknowledge that our efforts are futile, leading to broken aspirations, persisting until death.
In your hands your things have been coming to light up
In your possession, your belongings are revealed and illuminated.
I'm trying to break what you leave on your way
I attempt to dismantle what you leave in your wake.
I know that I can't overtake you till we die
I recognize that I cannot surpass you until death.
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