Backroads
Back on Backroads: A Journey Through Heartbreak
Lyrics
Coping comes when I turn that key
Coping happens when I start my car
To forget the way you looked at me
Trying to forget the way you looked at me
Label drinking
Using alcohol as a way to cope
To get you off my mind
Drinking to try to stop thinking about you
Strands of hair sitting next to me
Strands of your hair remain as a reminder
Only part of you that didn't leave
The only part of you that hasn't left
Covered by that box of health to medicate
Trying to cover emotional pain with medication
Yeah I'll medicate
Using substances to cope
Headlights in a nothing town
Driving through a deserted place
Blasting noise all the way just to drown out sounds
Playing loud music to drown out painful thoughts
Of painful cries
Hearing cries of pain in my mind
Of you not with me
Feeling the absence of you
Just a simple man of black and white
Describing oneself as simple, straightforward
Who promised you a better life
Making promises for a better life that were disregarded
That you tossed away
You discarded the promised better life
So now I'll go back
Returning to a previous state
Back to drivin'
Going back to driving
Back to cryin'
Resuming crying and emotional pain
Back to my home
Returning to my place of comfort
Back on the backroads
Going back to remote and less-traveled roads
Back on the
Returning to
Backroads are talking to me late at night
Reflecting on memories and thoughts at night
From downing all them drinks
From drinking excessively
To getting too high
Using substances to escape
'Cause when you left me for another man
Responding to your leaving by drinking more
I slammed another twelve as fast as I can
Consuming alcohol rapidly to numb emotions
To feel numb
Wanting to feel nothing about what we had
To everything we had
Desiring to return to how things were
I just want it back the way it was
Wanting to move forward without reliving past pain
Without you repeating all my past
Feeling the absence of you
Headlights in a nothing town
Driving through a deserted place
Blasting noise all the way just to drown out sounds
Playing loud music to drown out painful thoughts
Of painful cries
Hearing cries of pain in my mind
Of you not with me
Feeling the absence of you
Just a simple man of black and white
Describing oneself as simple, straightforward
Who promised you a better life
Making promises for a better life that were disregarded
That you tossed away
You discarded the promised better life
So now I'll go back
Returning to a previous state
Back to drivin'
Going back to driving
Back to cryin'
Resuming crying and emotional pain
Back to my home
Returning to my place of comfort
Back on the backroads
Going back to remote and less-traveled roads
Are made for you and me
Those roads are meant to cover unseen wounds
To bandage up what you don't see
Using remote roads to hide vulnerabilities
'Cause I hide myself
Keeping myself hidden to avoid pain
To keep from being hurt
Protecting myself from getting hurt
But I pushed myself to let you in
Allowing you into my life, only for betrayal
Just for you to go behind my back again
Being betrayed after letting you in
And I know
Understanding that suppressing emotions worsens them
That pushing it down just makes it worse
Realizing that suppressing emotions intensifies pain
(Oh yeah it makes it worse)
Admitting that suppressing emotions worsens the situation
But I'm flashing my
Using lights as a metaphor for trying to find a way out
Headlights in a nothing town
Driving through a deserted place
Trying everything I can just to get you out of my head
Trying everything possible to forget you
'Cause you're not coming back
Understanding that you won't return
And I knew our time was set in stone
Realizing that our relationship had a predetermined end
In the moments where I took too long
Recognizing moments where I hesitated
To open up
Admitting I'm not comfortable with vulnerability
But I'm not made for that
Not being naturally inclined to open up emotionally
Back to drivin'
Returning to driving
Back to cryin'
Resuming crying and emotional pain
Back to my home
Returning to my place of comfort
Back on the backroads
Going back to remote and less-traveled roads
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